lalala

2010-10-08T08:45:00.001-07:00

If i got the money...

I'll buy:

new badminton shoe
new shoe bag
new bag
new camera
new mp3

only if i got the money....

2010-10-03T09:01:00.000-07:00

am i the one that have been MIA-ed long?? / Results out...

just met up with 2 lovely girls.

they somehow made me feel so bad that i hadn't been meeting up with my secondary cliques.

looking back at photos and the recent photos that they've took w/o me and i don't even know that gathering even exist. i kept thinking if i'm the one that changed and drift away from the?

1Oct.

results day...it was a happy day instead. got a 3 for my current sem((:

i've got no idea who can i share my joy with. remembering the days where we jumped for joy when results were awesome and remembering the days we cried 'cause we did badly for the subject we loved. how are you guys now? i miss the time with you. i want to meet up with you guys but i just dunno how. i'm afraid our schedules doesn't match. i'm afraid i don't have time to meet you girls. i'm afraid that even if i have the time, i might have last minute things to do. i'm afraid i don't know how to start a topic. i'm afraid i drift from a conversation.

i'm just afraid of a lot of things...

2010-04-01T12:28:00.000-07:00

If time.......

if time were to travel back? what would you want to savage? can i save our relationship?

2010-01-17T10:11:00.001-08:00

To quit or not to quit?

2010-01-12T23:03:00.000-08:00

I FAILED MY TP.

2010-01-04T08:24:00.000-08:00

UPDATED((:

been a long time since i last update(as usual..)
hmms. since it's a brand new year, shall update something to keep my blog alive((:

2009 was a pleasent year though with alot of ups and downs. whatever it was, they shall be the past and i'm looking forward to the future! life's definitely have to move on no matter what. unpleasent stuffs shall be kept and buried deep in my heart.

4th Jan 2010.
1st day of school.....was an unpleasent day for me...found out that i need to retake my ECONS paper! darn it! i seriously did study hard for it! but i still fail by 5 marks. darn it, seriously! it seems that all my hard work had gone to waste. it seems like i'm just wasting my time! hasn't have time to chill down and i need to study again for retest! darn it! hopefully, this time round i'd at least get a pass! i don want to repeat module! especially for ECONS!!!!!!!

whatever it is, i believe if i did study, it'll be paid off totally..shall than start psycho-ing myself:
I LOVE ECONS.
I LOVE ECONS.
I LOVE ECONS.
I LOVE ECONS!!!!

whatever~.... hmms. 4th Jan.. was talking to my polymates about how were we on the same day 5 years and also 11 years ago...
what am i doing on my first day of secondary school and also primary school?
curious huh.((:
try thinking back it's all memories, i swear..
those innocent days were the times that i missed most..

Counting Down:
8 more days to IVP. another gold medal?
9 more days to TP.......

i think i should get my head stuffed in ECONS notes now...

2009-09-17T23:25:00.000-07:00

GPA 2.35.

was it something to be proud of?
certainly not. i didn't put in much effort in studying for those papers, i know and grades were expected.
not the things i've been studying, but the way and organising my time to study are to be changed. it was truely a disappointment to me when i was my own GPA.

buck up, dear! - myself..

2009-09-15T08:55:00.000-07:00

always look on the bright side of life....

though there are always the bad side that caught our attention first.
(still trying to adapt to see things at different angle)..

2009-09-14T02:31:00.000-07:00

indeed, i was bored enough..

bored enough to change my blogskin.
hmms, sick at home doing nothing. kinda bored to death.. hate being sick. hate skipping trainings..
hmms. whatever it is, was just my fault for not taking care of myself.
ID'09
ID was a success((: though many things crop up but it's still a success and many campers didn't realise it(: haas. glad that campers didn't notice it((: hmms, zeph and sebes quitted comm. kinda sad. really missed the time joking with zeph. hmms. think she's very committed to tennis. now's a question to ask myself..which am i nore committed to? badminton or SSC?
straight after ID was retreat. really love the time being with SSC mates. haas(: love them!
haas.
hmms, got the post of PC for sports camp. though it isn't any of my choice, but still very happy(: cos' i wanted to try all the post before i graduate((: love(:

now, back on my sofa and have a good rest...

2009-07-09T09:14:00.000-07:00

things finally settled down.

p/s: my banner's fianlly up at np bus stop!! take a look at that!! killed near to half of the total of my brain cells designing. well, the other half of the brain cells are killed by the poster designs..but! it finally comes to an end eventually! thought many unhappy things happen in between. but, it's all over man! and what's more important, my banner and posters are settled and up!! YEAH-NESS!!
do take a look if you happen to pass there! it'll only be up for a few weeks! so don miss the chance of seeing my beautiful design:P haas! like the LOL lo. haas! ooh, do sign up for it kks(: SSC guaranties a fun-filled and exciting camp!
hmms, will be staying over night in school for the trail run tml. panda eyes deeper for me, my god!!

another random post....
tomorrow guah lih's going overseas for archery qualifying round for YOG!!! it's like what the!! he's representing Singapore you know?! that's what i always hoped and dream for! but in badminton la! chatted with him a lil about this then he's like saying that he has to pay a certain amount of money before going. den he's down there nagging how much, how expensive it is. but i was like saying it's like okay la. air ticks, accommodations, food, shirts for representing etc la. it's like bloody cool can!!! hmpt, shall continue to work hard.... but kinda chances are really slim.....
nvm! but at least when i'm old and look back, i know that badminton once filled my life(: badminton's the one which once brought happiness, satisfactory, tears and joy to me(: it's seriously getting in slowly, step by step into my life ever since i started it.

ilovebadminton(:

2009-07-02T08:26:00.000-07:00

my life's in total mess right now!

this isn't what i initially wanted to see. not in the past, not now, not even in the future.
perhaps, i didn't express myself in a clearer way, causing serious misunderstanding. i seriously don't wish to see us in this type of awkward situation. years of friendship, is this what you wish to see? maybe you'll be thinking that is me, who cause this situation to occur. i admit, i do change in terms of attitude. but am i the only one who had change in terms of attitude? probably everyone does, but it's the matter of who changed the most. is it the environment that changes everything? or are there many other causes?
me? probably, it's the environment and the people around me that causes me to adapt to all those changes. what about you? do you think you've changed?

labels: people tends to change greatly the moment they mixed with different group of people.

2009-06-30T01:40:00.000-07:00

It probably isn’t what you thought it was.

do you even make it a point to do some reflection?

2009-06-28T07:32:00.000-07:00

naturally retarded?!

am i really retarded? think i'm mentally retarded.
LOL.

2009-06-25T23:15:00.000-07:00

medicine's driving me crazy!!!

alright, people are complaining why am i not updating my blog when i DO have one.
basically, i'm just not in any mood to post anything, even a hilarious thing that happen that particular day or probably something that spoils my day.
stupid flu that follows me for about a month before i consult my doctor.
**(it's not h1n1 alright! PROVED)** okay, just some random thoughts about h1n1. it's going to be a community spread in about just a couple of days time? why? shouldn't people that came back from those affected countries quarantine themselves? they should have some responsibilities after SARS that took place few years back! didn't them learn their lesson. many die then, due to irresponsibility of owning up that they travelled to those countries. sigh.

back on track. doctor prescribe 2/3 medicine that will cos drowsiness. these medicine immediately make me feel like closing my eyes and not open for at least a few hours!
forced my eyes to keep them open but my brain's not functioning! don't feel like saying anything. not even commenting or explaining anything at all. just feel like keeping me mouth shut for the moment and hide everything from you guys.
mood and attitude aren't that good i know. and i know i can't blame everything on the medicine. it's myself for why i'm falling sick in the first place. if i don't shut up, i'll be throwing my tantrums at everyone. so would you rather i shut up or i throw tamtrum? forcing myself to act normally whenever i'm not? sorry i can't, or probably it's something act out naturally whenever i'm not well. i'm straight, and sorry if i've hurt you guys out there. i don't like myself being this way too.
i hate it. seriously.

hate it being my normal self. sorry.

going crazy over badminton stars! time to get my mind off everything but badminton! badminton = my life?

2009-06-10T03:27:00.000-07:00

hahahahahahaha

post by emily..

2009-03-22T23:01:00.000-07:00

quiz i did on face book which turns out damn accurare about my character!

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

if you know me well, what do you think?

2009-03-21T06:54:00.000-07:00

i'm back from sports camp!!!

yeah! the camp was real fun! 4days seems so bloody short! how i really feel that i could stay for a couples of days more. hmm. basically, i'm super duper tanned!!! seriously!

haas.
okay~, alright~, okay okay alright, alright alright okay!
haas. okay, i'm done for now. shall update more next time((:

updated!!

1st day:
ice-breaking and some games. it's all of the introduction games. one of the games was the "blowing game" haha. and i told rainer this: "cheryl's gonna win that game." haha! some inner jokes la((: hmms, then learnt some cheers like half day later. was in the same group as rainer. was like glad to have someone i know in the same group at first. but ya, he threw me behind and went with his newly met friends. ya lors. then i went to find mine to...
ooh! there's another gina in my group! like finally i found another person with the same name as me. haha. but that gina wasn't sociable. she didn't want to make new friends. but upon seeing her own friends, she's like flying over to find them like that. so what's the point of joining camps? nah, no idea. den on the last night, one of the gl, yong kang, asked me why we share the same name but charater totally diffierent. haaas. i was like... diaos. hahah((:
but overall, peeps in my group were awesome!

2nd day:
had morning pt which is like running around half the campus! they said it was a short run. but ya, we ran like half the campus, i think. haas. a way to say that the run was long. keex:P
then, tried out various sports, like volleyball, rugby, floorball, dodge ball, captainsball, frisbe and canoe polo. it's fun trying out the various sports! haha((: then kinda had night amazing race..haas. climbing up the bloody 7 storeys! oh, ya. there goes one day.

3rd day:
slept till slightly later, cos we slept late the previous night. haas. the cc made our wish come true by not giving us morning pt! haas((: thank god man! everyone's like suffering from muscleache lors. haas. ya, then went to kallang for DBing!!! damn fun can! suddenly have the kind of urge to join NPDB! haas. hmm. had shengqin on the boat with me, sitting infront of me as the 'teacher'. haas. ya, thanks to him i got wet like even when the boat haven't started moving off yet. haas. kept psycho-ing me to join DB! but seriously i wanted to join DB before that. but i have to get the permission of my parents. cos they say it's dangerous.....diao. but i don't find that it's dangerous anyway. haas. but whatever it is, have to like depend on them.
then bused back with ben low! haas. he's damn cool but jokes too! seldom like find ppl that have the cool looks and jokes at the same time! haas. he's 1years older than me. haas. added him on facebook already! haha:P fast huh:P
*no other intention!

had camp fire on the 3rd day also. haas. had a performance that night also. that item come from rainer. kinda like the big boss in the group la. ya...
after that stayed up for like until 4? i can't rmb. played truth or dare with my team, cgl and gls...haas. never tio me de. also not fun. haas. was still waiting for them to ask who's my eye candy in the camp:P haha.

last day:
played some disgusting games. BUT! IT'S FUN! startin with captainsball on butt. with detergent, butter on the ground sheet. haas. but fun. second game was the chair passing game. then the gls kept spraying icy water on us. haas. den put ice cube into our shirt. then they kept putting into my shirt but i got no reaction. then hannah, one of the gls was like asking, "gina, why you not feelings de.?" haas. den kept laughing. haas. very funny mehs? haas. it's cooling ma. haas. keex.
then after that was the paint station. had our blindfolds on. then following the one infront of us. haas. then in the middle of the game was like we messed up. then after that line up again, i was still behind that one guy. we were like kept standing together no matter how we mess ourself up. haas. that maybe call fate. haha. next station was the jacuzzi dunno what de. which is like a damn dirt, oily pool la! with all the left over food. actually we don't believe that there's felt over food de. den the helpers open up one pack of food then pour them into the pool in front of us la. damn disgusting de! haas. ask us to find the bone, drumstick, 5cm long noodle, kway teow. yewk..! haha. but fun la. haas. one in the blue moon getting mself do bloody smelly, dirty. haas. den last station we went to was the animal farm. can't talk, can only do the sound of the animal we chose. haas. then have to find our teammates. haas. eventually we all found our own group members. haha((:

haas. ooh, okay, during the camp, i was like making a fool of myself among the girls la, then they found out the i am 18, they were like, "you really don't look like 18 lehs!!" haha. yeah! i look young though!! haha((:

end of camp, the first person that i miss was like ben low lehs! haha. missed his " boom somebody ah!" haha((: funny! okay, i miss most of my cgl, gls amd mates! haha((:

that's all!
ooh, i look damn like a dragonboater man! due to my tann skin and muscles line. damn!
cyrus oi!!!

2009-03-12T07:49:00.000-07:00

they don't seems to be bothered about whatever's happening to me.
registration is just for a few days. they can't even be bothered to sit down and take a look at it.
does it mean that even if i miss my registration date it's my own fault?
does it mean that even if i can't get into my course is my own problem?
is getting a new notebook neccessary for me?
they don't seems to be bothered to go down and take a look with me. don't even bother to transfer me the money. don't even bothered to ask what notebooks are there for me to choose.
even if i pay the notebook by myself, they'll again nag. saying that i didn't discuss with them.
the problem is, did you even want to take about it?
kept saying i never read and stuff. is nagging all you know?
if i know all your particulars, i couldn't have ask you

2009-03-04T07:23:00.000-08:00

i don't feel like knowing new friends!

hmm. i'm kinda really don't feel like meeting new friends.. kinda miss everyone already..
miss the class, miss my cliques...

i'm so not looking forward to meeting new friends!!

labels: am i kinda losing you soon, as a friend?

2009-02-27T10:41:00.001-08:00

okay, i'll let things go it's way.

2009-02-27T09:41:00.000-08:00

it's not that you ppl are good!! just that LUCK wasn't at our side! you dumb!

okay, i'm not being mean here. but that's the truth! our girls did fantastic today la! just that luck wasn't at our side. you dumb.
okay, i shall start explaining.. i dunno how the hell i'll pass by ____ badz girl's blog and i went reading some posts. bloody! made me pissed like don't know what! irritating! do you think you ppl are really that good?! blood! actually you ppl leave quite good impression for me for your good team bonding BUT!!! what the hell is that attitude of yours?!! do you think the arrogance of yours could bring you guys into nationals top 4?! think, it's not all about arrogance that could get you ppl everything. NONE! arrogance brings you to no where! NOTHING!!
honestly speaking, i'm quite impressed for the great bonding in your team. team spirit is great! but! attitude sucks! okay, i apologise for using that word. but, i just can't find any word that sound better than that. really sorry. frankly speaking, you ppl would be better if without your stupid attitude.
i'm not being biased or what. but that's what i'll say from an outsider.
okay, whatever it is, i apologise once again for saying those harsh things.

okay, enough of venting anger out of me. hmms. seriously i think you girls played well today! i'm impressed for your fighting spirit today! serious! but just, luck wasn't with us. jia you for nationals(:

ooh, went viewing other ppl's blog... randomly..
and i found out that many schools doesn't like us. i mean kranji badminton team. seriously i went thinking over it. for what i think and see, we're just a lil, or could say we're just too agressive inside the court. but we aren't that only school that did that! other schools does that too. but why pick on us? we are nice ppl, okay?! at least i think we're nice peeps.

last thing!!
we are KRANJI!!

NOT KLANJI, KAN JI OR WHATEVER SHIT!!!

2009-02-22T08:14:00.000-08:00

time to go for car licence!!

2009-02-17T08:51:00.001-08:00

sleepless nights these few days..

what the hell is wrong with me?
i've been having sleepless nights these few day!! seriously i'm tired. kept yawning non stop. BUT! the moment i got onto my bed, i can't get myself sleeping! kept my eyes closed but still can't catch some sleep. i spent like rolling on my bed for 3hours or so before getting some sleep. but thank god that i've not yet started school. if not, i won't get to sleep more than 8hours per day!
hmms, basically, i've been sleeping late these few days.

everyone's posting about V.day..
haas, what's happening on my V.day. haas. i spent it with my lovely nieces and nephew((:
haas, no where that i can go. it's just another saturday that i spent it at clementi.
not that i've really got no where to go. but just don't feel like going anywhere else on that day.
exactly one week after V.day. what's so special? it's just another day..

labels: i just don't wanna get into relationship.

2009-02-12T08:34:00.000-08:00

it's just a few more days...

i'm like always hoping for it to fall on a weekends. always hoping it to not clash with tournaments.
it all happens this year!! but, i'm not a single bit excited and looking forward to it!! hmms.
i don't know why. but just, just.... not feeling anything for it. it seems to be just another day...

labels: can i say that i'm just disappointed?

2009-02-01T08:52:00.000-08:00

army for me??

went to the army career seminar today. was like.. hmms, i don't know how to express the feelings inside me now. if i sign for the bond, i'll get scholarship from them and an allowance of 1000bucks from the army every month. this would like reduce the financial burden on my parents. but on the other hand, getting into army is what i wanted also. Artillery is like so much attracting my attention. other than that there's also army medical services which in other word is called medic. you know what? i'm like more interested in joining the medic force than others. idk why. i just like helping people when they needed help on the medical side, always wish that i could help out in saving lifes. but, i doesn't have a cert for first-aid and stuffs. to get into the medic force, they say it's best to have a diploma in nursing, or a nursing background. i got none. hmms, kinda hear lots of comments from them about where i could go. hmms.
i seriously got no idea where to go. i really wished to serve the nation. for what i think, if i've got the ability, i should pick up skills and knowledge in protecting our nation from any disaster. who says disasters never happens in Singapore? no one knows what's happening in the next minute, and if i'm prepared , i'm able to bring safety to my love ones, making sure that nothing happen to them.

but during that, there's a signed-on solider came over to like some how tell me not to sign for the JPSDS. because, i've got the choice not to go NS. and also not to waste my time in servicing NS when i can choose to spend my time doing further studies. hmms.
nevertheless, i find what he said was pretty true. i can still go out to earn money for my own school fees without signing for the bond. thus, i walked out of the presentation hall without registering for the interview. hmms.
my brain is now filled with choices and decisions for me to make.
i'm seriously that indecisive in making decisions now. stop asking me to make decisions for anything now, even for what to eat, how am i dressing myself up for that day and stuffs. because, i'll definitely give you hell loads of scoldings!! yupps, pardon me for that...

anyway, i've been shopping and buying new things for myself!! it's a kind of de-stress for me at this point of time. yupps, bought a skirt yesterday after movie. and a storybook today. hmms, basicall, i think i bought at least an item each day.. gosh.. can i start school early without choosing course????!!!!!! i simply love both the courses lars!!!!

decisions still lies on me...

2009-01-30T08:58:00.000-08:00

ya, congrates...

ya, congratulations to me getting into the courseS i want. i know some may find that it's something good. but somehow, it isn't for me.
should i continue badminton with the team of ex-fuhau players? only if i continue badminton, i can take up leisure facilities management..
if not, i gotta take up marine offshore which is another course that i love. but just chatted with yilin that marine offshore needs to travel overseas often. currently, i still love sleeping in my own bed..
hais. those two courses are my first 2 choices. so what?
left me with so many problems...
QC says that leisure and facilities management isn't as good 'cos in this course, i'll be studying quite a few different modules.

can i not take up badminton if i go leisure facilities management?
can someone give my some advice? i honestly need them urgently!!

i'm serioualy going crazy with this!!!!!!!

i need counseling!!!!

2009-01-22T09:48:00.000-08:00

blog updated...

actually, i've been kind of lazy to post anything here. because, i don't know if anyone is viewing this..
hmms. been working for SK for the past few days. it's a super duper tiring job!! i still prefer my office work. sobs. i've already resigned. but they don't need people also, so ya, me and one of my colleage felt that we're so un-important there.. so, i resigned first:P she found another job also, but she doesn't want to quit so this is her first job. she's just hoping for them to FIRE her. haas((:
missed all my colleages there. i miss every single one of you there. love. ):

results..
wasn't that good. as what i expected, i screwed up my english. ended up getting a D7..
but the good thing is that i screwed up my science too, but i still got a B3 for science..piew..blooody lucky..
hmms. got 18points..where can i go? with failing my english..there's really limited choices for me to choose.. i'm like suppose to put marine offshore as my first choice.. but people discourage me to do so.. so i ended up putting leisure and facilities management. yupps. applied for theis JPSAE too. through badminton. and ya, been called down for interview today. the 3 interviewer who interviewed me were so damn cute!! 3 uncles:P haas. this proves that engineering courses are mostly guys.. yupps, but i'm exceptional.. haas((: shall follow where my interest goes..

anyway, i missed the chance of celebrating MF and AUDREY's birthday with you guys..
i'm really sorry.. i promise i'll make them up for you guys some day alright? really sorry..
honestly, i miss you guys too.. will catch up with you guys real soon alright? love.

selling shoes isn't easy, i swear..
we need a lot of crapping skills. damn shit. talking rubbish like never before. whatever...
looking at the same old shoes every time i work. still got the urge to get myself a pair of checked heels that i eyed on, on the first day of my work.. yupps. it's nice!! but it's EX too!!
ya, nvm... shall continue to eye..

i've got the sudden crave for new bags!! especially checkered stuffs!!
are you willing to get one for me? haas..sorry, i'm day-dreaming...

labels: i missed everyone of you..loved.

2009-01-10T07:44:00.000-08:00

counting down to the day of release

ooh please. stop reminding me about monday!!
i know i'm taking results on monday.
i know it's probably going to be my dooms day.
AHH!!! it's seriously driving me crazy!! wasn't able to catch much sleep for the past few days.
think i've got a few more sleepless nights before everything come to an end.
but i think i've predicted my own results.
i screwed up english. so, i couldn't score any better.
appearing a 'B' for english, and i'll definitely jump for joy.
but would that happen? god knows.

i'm BLOODY NERVOUS, can!! can't imagine the scene of myself opening the result slip!!
who don't wish their own faces appearing on the big screen?!!
once again for me? sad to say, it's difficult.

I'M GOING CRAZY!! can someone just release the result right at this moment!!!

2008-12-27T08:07:00.000-08:00

it's time to post something((:

ooh well, time to post again((:
tml time passed kind of fast!! it's like the last few days of 2008!! and 2009 is coming in a few days time!!
honestly, i'm not prepared to welcome a brand new year, not prepared to welcome many new things. are you?
hmm. 2008 left me with lots of fun and memories!
year 2008 is going to be a year that i've done the most crazy stuffs. from the shopping sprees with my crazy mates, to mass mugging, to proms, chalet, to the marathon and many more!!
i'm officially out of kranji. officially no longer in kranji badminton, officially no longer a student in kranji. frankly speaking, it's really hard bidding goodbyes.

ooh well, shall start with the marathon i ran few weeks or even months ago:P
hmms.
it's seriously a once in a life time event! during the run i was like 'what the hell am i doing here running half marathon!' it's really freaking tiring!! furthermore, i hasn't been training, or even running for the past half year before the run!! i'm not even prepared for that!! but i ran the whole of 12km before i started walking!! felt proud of myself too((: kees:P hey, at least i RAN half of half marathon lars!! it's incredible!! haha((:
ooh ya, other that completing the run in 3hour 15mins, there's one more thing that i'm bloody proud of myself!! i threw paper cups on the floor during the ran!! haas((:
it's my first time throwing things all over the place in public lars!! it's a breakthrough for me((:
haha((: anyway, my cousin asked me to join her for the full marathon next year!! my god!! shall consider about that(: for the sake of the shirt:P
ooh ya, after the ran i was like a robot walking!! whole body ache like nobody's business!! and after the run i still went shopping and walking around with my parents to the airport, T3!! it's big lars:P haha((: everywhere, every corner's toilet!! i find toilet everywhere lars!! perhaps they're afraid that tourist might not be able to find one(: but i's good also(: we won't have to find up and down just for a toilet, and also the toilet won't be packed((: applause((:

next, christmas party(:
hmms, had a christmas party in office on the 23dec(:
it's fun(: haha((: tooked quite a few photos with my colleagues((: you can view my face book for the photos(:
then, 24dec was a christmas party at my house(: haha(:
it's a mini gathering infact(: haas((:
had a pot luck session((: Loo, Neo and Mao stayed at my house till 1am!! haha((: we were watching some show..which i don't really understand:P haha((:
ooh well, i spent my christmas with my beloved sister, TEO PEI WEN!! she gave me the doraemon cup that i wanted as christmas present!! love her damn lots man!!
actually i love quite a few of people infact.. Samuel gave me a doraemon towel, Zhan hui brought me a doraemon small bag from taiwan(: LOVE all of YOU!!! love and kisses((:

well, just had a outing with my lovely juniors!! went looking for places for dinner:P LOL
haas((: luckily me and wen in the end decided to wear pumps:P haha!! pity those juniors that wore heels.. haha!! okay, the juniors were kind of sweet to dedicate song for us!! thanks lots!! but we attempted to dedicate one back for them too, but they doesn't have that song. sobs. so i shall dedicate that song right here in my blog for them(:
p/s: ah wen say wan sad sad de. so pardon me for posting such a sad song..
today's really a wonderful day-out with all the juniors(: we spent the last saturday of 2008 together yea??!! love you girls!!

Farewell - Raymond Lauchengco

labels: all that you've done are seriously appreciated(: loved.

2008-11-26T22:28:00.000-08:00

relationship. taken from Mattew Zachary's blog

not for any reasons, but i seriously find that things he wrote in his blog do make serious sense & i really LOVE the way he wrote things. -LOVED-

If a guy wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesnt want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.. sometimes, you've got to let your intuition save you from heartache. And please dont try to change yourself for a relationship thats not meant to be..

Im not being mean.. but I personally believe that you should never live your life for a guy before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the guy was not treating you the way you deserve to be treated, dont kid yourself by continuing to be friends..

A friend wouldnt and shouldnt mistreat a friend.

If you feel like something's not right or that he might possibly be cheating on you, then he probably is. Dont be so gullible as to hold on thinking "it will get better". You'll only be mad at yourself a year later for holding on to nothing and just getting hurt all these while..
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

there's much more..
but ya, for those who knows his blog and is interested in reading more of his posts, just get to his blog(:
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for next part of this post..

QUIZs
just feeling kinda bored when i found these quiz on friendster...
answering these quizes really made me look so dunb.. but seriously, i've got nothing to do, that's why i did those quizes

#o1. title of quiz: Take the sexy quiz baby!

The Bomb
You're the bomb! You're so hot. You're on fire! (or soon will be, when you explode and stuff). You're crazy, a little violent, and a lot of fun. You're wild.

#o2. title of quiz: Take the quiz and learn what kind of girl you are!

Angel
You are pure and beautiful. Looking into your eyes is a religious experience. When you spread your wings men fall to their knees, and kiss the ground. Hallelujah!

#o3. title of quiz: Are you in love?

Crushing
You have a crush on someone! Crushing is a bit different than love, but it feels like almost the same thing. You think of that special person constantly, and your heart is full of hope and anticipation. Good luck to you!

#o4: Take the famous moron quiz!

Smart
You're no moron; you're a smart cookie. You read, and write, and do all of that other smart stuff. You probably have an extensive library of tomes, and you probably have cool looking spectacles.

#o5. Take the Rich Quiz!

Rich
You will have lots of money. Having lots of money will allow you to buy pretty things, and socialize with pretty people. Maybe all the cash will even bring you happiness?

#o6. Famous Ass Quiz!

Rabbit
As a noble hare you are well respected, adored even. The opposite sex finds you irresistible; you are quite the charmer. In addition to being a lover, however, you are also a philosopher. You are deeply familiar with the mysteries of this world, and so you are a great resource for advice.

#o7. Are You a Good Person?

Cute
Cute people are highly suspicious! Because you're cute, people naturally trust you. That trust, however, may be misplaced. Often a cute demeanor is merely the cover for a nefarious person.

end of quiz, but isn't the ending of this post yet(:
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sorry for posting this X-tra long post...
but for the long period of MIA blogging, i shall post it all at once. ((:

hmm, Os ended, first event coming up was the PROM night((:
was great(: because, it's a message to me that i've OFFICIALLY GRADUATED from secondary school!! BUT ,BUT, BUT!! KSS would definitely still be the beloved school of mine where guided me through the important years of my youth. a place where it'll never fail to discipline, and bring out my true self((: KSS would forever be my SECOND HOME- a place where will NEVER be forgotten, but to be REMEMBERED!!
well,for what happened during the proms, you can easily found in any of the graduates' blog((:

next up was the SEC5s chalet((:
it was definitely fun, being with all my mates was simply GREAT!!
LOVED(:
looking forward to the next gathering((:

well, next event for i think was what cheryl yeo enjoys the MOST- what camp? RED CAMP5!!!
haas((: red camp made me understand NP even more(: made me feel like being part of NP even more!!
basically for what i enjoyed most for red camp was the zouk out session((: first time dancing the hell out of me(: it was tremendously enjoyed by me((:
i met my primary school mate-PCK there la!! he was one of ther SL there but only on the last day then i met him..LOLS!! haas((: we've lost contact for like don't know how many donkey years already la!! but ya, we've just exchanged numbers. soo, just hope for a PRIMARY SCHOOL gathering yeah((:

after RED CAMP...hmmmmm...let me think..
OOH!! was KSS open house'o8!!
was just feel extraordinary high after red camp, and i went helping to promote KSS, was just making a fool out of myself when a parent ask about the speed of excelling of guys and girls during badz..ooh, bloody. i seriously don't know what the hell i answered!! that's so embarrassing!! but thank god that'll be the first and also the last i'm going to see that parent..hopefully he'll not remember me:P

went SP for the mass com. thingy straight after the KSS open house.
was basically attracted my the prizes:P but got none.. but nevermind, at least i've got a $1o voucher for benz & jerry & also a $1o voucher for captial land((:
hmm, but i've still learnt much of what people in mass com. did((:

lastly fot the lastest activity i had before this post was the badminton camp'o8 !!
it was serionsly the last camp i'll had as a student in kss..
hmm, had much comments about this camp, but ya, enjoyed much also. thanks for the organising commitee for spending much of their time making this camp 'successful'. next year would definitely be better right??!!

but seriously, i enjoyed the time spent with my ex-teammates. especially with the gradutes. but just a pity that MF and becky can't attend..(sobs). hmms, just wondering when'll the next gathering for us..

p.s: whatever had past will definitely not be forgotten, but will always stay in my memory forever..
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lastly, (really the last)
the photos((:

2008-11-12T01:25:00.000-08:00

CONGRATS!!

wuahahaha!! i've successfully end the war with papers!!! ooh my, it's really kinda excited:P
hmms. after the war, felt the kind of emptiness in me. at lost suddenly. perhaps, i'm just too bored!! but however, the whole week of proms, i'll be kind of busy.
ooh!! PROMS is like just this coming monday!! 5more days!!! seriously, i'm not mentally prepared!! everything just happened too fast!! so scary!!
ooh gosh!!
i'm so anxious about proms!!!

happy 17th birthday to baobei-dor!!
12-11-08

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to dor dor, happy birthday to you!!((:
(**claps!!)

may all your wishes come through((:

ps: i change my blogsong back to english song again:P

2008-10-08T03:03:00.000-07:00

trying to accept the fact.

it's the 7th day since my grandma passed away.
everything seemed to be different. somehow i missed the way she used to called me.
whenever i looked at her photo, i just can't bring myself to say that she's no longer with me.
the times i spent with her were real short. i didn't real spent time by her side until she was real sick at home, unconscious. due to my poor speaking and understanding of hokkien, i neglected her presence. and now honestly, i missed her. i really regretted of not spending more time with her.

will the rest of the saturdays be as usual? when will the next gathering for all the families be? when will the next chance of me having memorable time with my cousins?
frankly speaking, i really enjoyed the time spent of that 5days with all my cousins. however not for any happy occasion. how i wish we'll forever be spending our time like this, be in contact forever.

if there's a next chance, i will still want to be in the same big family as now, i will still want to be your grand-daughter, ah ma. i'll promised i'll spent more time with you the next time i'm your grand-daughter.

will there be life after death? they said my grandma is now a deity looking after us from heaven. thankyou for giving me so much care and concern; thankyou for giving me such a big and wonderful family. thanks alot!

ah ma, we love you.
and i know, you love us too. ='(

Goodbye My Love - Teresa Teng

Goodbye My Love - Teresa Teng

2008-09-15T03:52:00.000-07:00

越走越远 - 赵默

越走越远

云到底要往哪里飞

能不能把我的思念

带回那个小小的屋檐

站在窗前

看着云在陪我掉眼泪

寂寞没有人能了解

却把整片天空都染灰

想要试着勇敢一点

我闭上了双眼

跟昨天说再见

不知道有什么人听见

想要试着长大一点

人总是要改变

一个人去面对

也许还要多一点时间

越走越远

每件事总会变成从前

只是明天来临之前

今夜我还是一样失眠
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i'm sorry, vin.

not really have the time to do the quiz.
yupps. i promised i'll surely do it one day alright((:
sorry.

2008-09-01T00:46:00.000-07:00

erasing everything off my brain.

perhaps silent means a thousand word.
and, perhaps i'm not going to voice out any point of my view ever again.
wasn't my temper as bad?
what ever it is, not voicing out anything would be the best solution for me.
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最后的沖刺

prelims acts as the one and only revision before the big Os..
just ended the first weeks of prelims.. it was really tiring!! all the written papers at one go.
it really tired me out. but, eventually, the week after prelims, i only have 3 papers((:
kinda relaxing week for me, but tiring week for those taking e-maths and history students((:
nevertheless, i'll still push myself hard enough to get into my idea course((:

next, i've sumited my folio!! it ahs always been a burden to me, and now, i'm successfully put it down!! no more burden!! yippie!! i think many d&t students feels the same right((:
shall now re-focus on my other subjects already((:
加油！
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最大心愿

although it may sound ridiculous. but that's my biggest dream ever.
-always hoping to get into national team and represent singapore in the upcoming international competitions..
在羽毛球界得到一块金牌, 一直是我夢寐以求的.
可是, 却一直沒法实现.
听起来确实是挺荒唐的, 但我绝对会竭尽所能达到我这远大的目标((:
加油吧！((:
希望一切能如愿异常((:

2008-08-31T20:24:00.000-07:00

不想再对你有所期待

2008-08-28T01:19:00.000-07:00

final lap to go!!!

counting down to Os..it's less then 100days, my gosh!!
i better buck up or else.. i'll regret for life. nevertheless, i won't forget to enjoy this learning process((:
i'll definitely miss lots of things in school(sobbs)
hmms, time flies faster than i expect. watching one batch of seniors leaving the school and soon is going to be my turn!! kind of scary!!
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there's finally chinese songs in my blog((:

upon browsing through my idol-Lin Dan and Xie Xing Fang's blog, i heard this song- 男人女人
i somehow got addicted to it already..
it's nice although there are few lyrics but it very meaning full((:
love the song!! ((:

shall stop here((:
jiayou ba((:

2008-08-09T00:02:00.000-07:00

i'm FINALLY online!!

yippy((: after so long, i've finally found sometime to sit down infront of my com and use it((:
the hard-disk of my lappie spoilt..officially declare dead for the moment now..
sad..have to wait for my dad to be free then he'll change a hard-disk for me..
hmpt hmpt..

090808..NATIONAL DAY..

HAPPY 43th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE((:

basicaly, just happy birthday:P

2008-07-26T07:42:00.000-07:00

it's a decade..

seriously, i seems to be decades ago the last time i updated my blog.
kind of nothing to update. it seems to be the same each day.
hmms, i woke up at 5.30AM this morning!!! cos i went to work((: it's easy money la, cos it's something i like to do- Game Master((: each of us were incharged of a game booth((:
it's tiring la!! we were told that there will be only 50 cars participate in this event but it ended up with 100 over cars!!! from all the cars that came to us, pearly and i concluded that people working in Great Eastern are RICH la!! we saw damn lot of ex+nice cars la..and we saw 1 JAGUAR la!!
haha. it's tiring but, it's fun((: hmm, went to ECP to help out first den after that went down to Marina South for the game booth. it's kind of perfect, but it could be better((: then we went down to WCP to help out also..den i climbed the PYRAMID(the netting pyramid)!! haas, it's fun((:
then after we collected our pay, me and pearly went to play at the playground:P it's so fun!! children nowadays are so fortunate la!! so many nice facilitied to play with.... i'm jealous...haas, but it's okie!! i attempted to play some((: WUAHAHAHA!! :P
*(we totally look like small kids when we played with the young kids la:P)
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♥,
26july08- tingting's birthday

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, ting♥ ! !
surprising, i remembered your birthday!! :P
haas..actually i only remember your birth-month:P
then i went to seared my 'o7 's handbook lars. i'm so good lars::P
kees.
once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY((:
HUGGS, and,♥ i MISSES YOU ♥ !!____________________________________________

OOH YA!!
i saw ♥ Mr. RAY ♥ this morning at WCP((: he didn't seems to see me((:
upon seeing him, i suddenly missed the seniors..it's been real long that we last met..i want some gathering!!!

seriously, i missed quite a lot of things....
♥ missed BADMINTON!!
♥ missed SENIORS!!
♥ missed KAYAKING!!
♥ missed BADMINTON GATHERINGS!!!

p.s i really do miss them...

2008-07-03T04:50:00.000-07:00

i felt guilty..

it seems every problem starts from me..glad i know it right??
but i just CAN'T stop myself from venting my anger..you vent your anger too right?? i know my way of venting my anger were just too extreme. but what can i do??! i'm already trying to change. perhaps you think i'm just finding excuses. that's what i really meant..

forget it!! i shall simply just apologise to prevent anymore misunderstandings....

p.s: am i really as bad as what you say??

2008-06-17T02:32:00.000-07:00

i ♥LOVE♥ you, COACH.

coach wee sent me this message this afternoon:
"Hi pl dont take it too hard on my lecture ystday. Its all a learning process n I hope u bcome better in future. Pax Vobiscum. Coach Wee."

i don't know who did he actually sent to other than me. but from what i know, he didn't sent this message to becky and ade. perhaps he realised i'm really upset when he blast at me yesterday.
i almost burst into tears just now when i saw this message. i was touched. **(though i don't know what's the meaning of Pax Vobiscum) could someone please enlighten me??!
i was at fault yesterday; i deserved that scolding.
although he scolded my yesterday, i didn't really hate him or anything but infact, i thanked him. he's the one who tolerate me for all the rubbish thingy i did during trainings.
i really ♥LOVE♥ you , Coach Wee!!

Coach Wee's a very nice coach. i hope that juniors under him, will ♥LOVE♥ him as much as i do.
regarding the Cgirls, i really do hope you girls would appreciate what he did. though thoughts and opinions may clash sometimes. but there's always a solution to it. he's not those old fogey kind. he'll accept your opinions and modify into a better one. trust me. he's a good coach.
i don't know what are your thoughts but perhaps coach alex is the ideal coach for you girls. i don't know.. all i know is, i SALUTE Coach Wee.

2008-06-16T02:23:00.000-07:00

my last wasn't my best..

i thought people kept saying the last supposing to be the best??!
why doesn't the apply on me??
was i complacent?? i know i'm not..and i'm being scolded for i'm being too complacent.
i've never got scolded my coach wee before and i've just got scolded by him in my last match.
i'm just not myself today..i'm TOTALLY off today.
my mind wasn't with me throughout the whole match..
i dragged weiwei down. i'm so sorry, ah wei.
i don't like the feeling of being off-form..
i'm really disappointed in myself today.
this wasn't what i am.
i knew those strokes that ~~can never~~ be used in doubles but i kept using!!! what's actually the problem with me??!! don't i just know how to follow instructions??!!

seriously, i've lose to myself totally in my very last tournament.
i was too nervous. too worried over today's match.
once again, i'm real sorry, weiwei.

2008-06-12T05:18:00.000-07:00

i took photo with PETER GADE!!!

i went to watch aviva yesterday..and i came home with something precious!!!

a photo with PETER GADE!! AAHHHHHH!!! it's PETER GADE!!!

OOH MY GOD!!!

please DON'T try to steal my handphone!! if not i'll definately KILL you for SURE!!

hahaha((: though it's a lil blur but it's definitely alright for me((: cos' i've managed to stand CLOSE BESIDE him!!
ooh my god!! i've taken photo with susilo, GADE..now left with taufiq hidayat and LIN DAN!!!

i hope i'll got the chance::P

12/o6/o8

hmm, went playing arena early morning today..we won today..supposing it's a good thing..but!!! our next match against nan hua on 15/o6/o8, 2pm to 4.30pm!!! IT CLASHES WITH AVIVA FINALS!!!

what the hell!! how am i suppose to fly down from boon lay to kallang?!!

ahh!!!

wanna cry le la!! hmm,,

we'll see that day..

anyway, i'm still bothering over what to wear for band concert tml..

ooh gosh..

2008-06-12T04:42:00.000-07:00

fulfilling cheryl's tagg..

Tagged by cheryl..

A) People who have been tagged must write their answer on their blog. B) Tag 8 ppl to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These ppl must state who they tagged and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to the other people. (:

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
:: depending on what he does..

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what will it be?
:: touring around the WHOLE WORLD!!

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
:: cool type.. no gown but shorts for me((:

#4. Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
:: sometimes..

#5. What's your ideal lover like?
:: humour?? CARING!!

#6. Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
:: loving someone((:

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
:: as long as i could..

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
:: i'll secretly wait for him((:

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
:: sadly, quiet a few..

#10. Is being tagged fun?
:: nope!! but tagging ppl's fun((:

#11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
:: someone successful?? PERHAPS..

#12. Who are currently the most important person to you?
:: my dearest friends around me((:

#13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
:: some sweety((:

#14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
:: married but poor((:

#15. What's the first thing you do every morning?
:: daze..

#16. Would you give all in a relationship?
:: not really..

#17. If you fall in love with 2 ppl simultaneously, who would you pick?
:: none.

#18. What type of friend do you like?
:: humourous, caring, someone who'll crap and get HIGH with me((:

#19. What type of friend do you dislike?
:: those who ignored me..

8 tagged ppl : pei wen, gerald, weiwei, christine(senior), boo, emily, yanling, samuel.

2008-06-09T07:28:00.000-07:00

my first concert ever!!

o8/o6/o8
haas(: it's been a tiring day carrying all the guzheng up and down the bus alright..
after we help to set up the stage, we went to the dressing room..wow!! the dressing room was big(b'cos there's alot of mirrors) haas((:
after that, we had our lunch in the dressing room also!! that's the first time in my entire life eating infront of the mirror..hahaha:P
after lunch-ing, went changing into costume..cos there's a rehearsal afterwards..
hmm, the rehearsal was bloody..
i fell asleep when the soloists were playing::P
haas::P
then the whole ensemble group got scolded for the song 南道阿里郎..because some were too fast, snatching beats..so the whole song sounds horrible::P
but never did we expect that we'll play that well during the actual rehearsal!!
video taken by cheryl:

after the concert went to meet cheryl; baobei they all..for more info refer to cheryl's bloggy((:

o9/o6/o6
i was bloody tired after the whole day of concert..then i suddenly realised band concert's just 4 more days after!! gosh!!

hmm, yupps, woke up at 8.3oam today::P i'm suppose to wake up at 7am for dnt..but i was late..i reached school at 9.3oam:P did a few hours of dnt and i've gonna rush down to arena for tourney..today's against RGS!!!
yes!! it's RAFFLES GIRL'S SCHOOL!! haas((:
basically we're prepared to get into the loser pool::P
we'll then fight our way back i nto the finals((:
that's a good thing((:
then after tourney went JP..accompanied becky to the popular, wen to the comics connection..BUT, they accompanied me to but my SOFT DRINK!! i'm so contempted!! haaas:P
i can't stop saying I'M EASILY SATISFIED!! :P

~~ end of entry((: enjoy the video((: ~~

2008-06-06T04:55:00.000-07:00

concert's getting nearer..

counting down: 2days to concert.
wow!! my FIRST concert ever in my whole life!!
i'm so bloody scared nervous!!
ooh my!! haas:PP
nevertheless, i'll be well prepared for it((:
jia you jia you!! (:

p/s: i'm real scared:P

2008-06-05T04:24:00.000-07:00

i'm seriously falling sick..

i've been venting my anger on anyone for no reason!! i'm so sorry for all the nonsense i've created..
please pardon me..that's the signal for me falling sick..
i'm so sorry..

lessons everyday during the past 2weeks of holidays...it's getting me sick and tired of going to school seriously..
but i've got no choice!! 'cos this year is the MOST important year for me!! there's no reason for me to not go to school ALREADY!! i'm going to give all out, like many of you guys having 'O's out there did..

the final year's gonna be the BEST!!
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continuing my artifact every single day..
it's tiring, but it just made me have some kind of satisfactory everytime i've completed parts of it, seeing my artifact getting closer and closer to my final product.
due date's getting nearer each day..so is 'O's..
gina, you gotta buck up alright??!!

same goes to all who're taking their 'O's this year((:

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lastly, i've changed my blog song once again:PP
no special reason but just SIMPLY LOVE it(:

enjoy((:

p/s: i love you, tweets((:

2008-05-22T01:42:00.000-07:00

want to know the defination of IMPOSSIBLE??!!
a defination that liting told me 2years ago..hmms, misses her loads..

IMPOSSIBLE -> I_AM_POSSIBLE

so, i truely believed that i'm able to hang on to whatever things untill the very end..
hang onto a few more days and, 'O' chinese's over..i'm going to do it once; and do it a good one((:
if my chinese's down, i would have 1 less subject to go--5 more to go!!
so, i'm surely going to put in my VERY VERY BEST!!

I AM POSSIBLE!!!!

2008-05-20T08:03:00.000-07:00

i'll cherish my life even more..

Sichuan's earthquake really stunned me..it's so shocking that a once well-developed city would now eventually be a total flat ground..
people dying to be saved..and people crying over the death..
atmosphere there were totally dead..
children became orphan just like that; losing all their family members..
how fortunate can i say i am??!! VERY!! having those i LOVED and those who LOVE me around me was such a blessing to me..
thanks god i's saved in this wonderful country..

hmm, anyone know the way of donating money for the relief operations of the disaster??

if i'm allowed to volunteer to help in the disaster, i'll fly there immediately to give in all i can, to help..
but right now, i'm not able to..my parents scold me crazy..including you..
nevertheless, i'm still able to do what i can right here to help (donations); no doubt no physical help from me..

today during chinese lesson, ms tan(陈老师) showed us a short video of the disaster in Sichuan..
am i suppose to say i'm just too emotional or so; i cried.. it's just a short video which does not even last for 5mins and i actually burst into tears..
it's not something that i acted out..but it's the true emotions in me..

i'll LOVE all those around me as much as i could from now onwards..

2008-05-19T06:32:00.000-07:00

pardon me for not being courageous enough..

i wasn't courageous enough to keep my mind clear..
eventually i choose to escape from the reality..
until the day i've got my mind out, i'll re-find my way through..
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anyway, for some relaxation after a busy/ nonsensical day today..

China preparing hard for Beijing Olymplics:

And if you're dead, please get to a hospital...

Falling should be planned...

I wouldn't dare...

Operators standing by....

Press it because you want to....

I give my life and my company, butthey just keep demanding more... _____________________________________________________________________

the end((:

2008-05-18T08:40:00.000-07:00

aren't i just a...

slut??
for no good reason, i felt this way..
kinda feeling so DOWN right now..
perhaps you really don't belong to me right from the beginning...
i'm some kinda letdown..
i felt that i've just snatched my bestie's boyfriend..
what's the problem with you, gina??!!

i've got no idea what am i posting right here..
i'm at lost of my mind..
please, someone give me one tight slap to wake me up..
just one will do..
to get me out of my dreams..

i just CAN'T find ANYTHING RIGHT in me...
feeling myself so bitchy..
i've really got no idea what RUBBISH am i writing here..
i'm so sorry..
i know you'll be able to see all this..
but i've really got no idea what's going through my mind right now..
it's all confusion..
i'm really sorry..
i know i shouldn't be thinking about all these now,
but i just couldn't hlp stopping all those thoughts in me.

maybe this glodfish could express my feelings now..

2008-05-09T04:13:00.000-07:00

hopes diminished...

for the very first time i failed my chinese paper during examination..
the very first time i failed extremely bad for my favourite subject..
what was the main reason behind??
i know the paper was tough..but it wasn't an acceptable reason..it's just an EXCUSE..
myself was to blame.. not attending the ip coaching & not do all the things the rest did..
lazyness in me is KILLING me!!!

perhaps i was just too over confidence in my chinese..
i was totally WRONG..
a subjest i was hoping for an A1..
i'm just dreaming..

i EXPECT:
-my english to FAIL;
-my combine humans to FAIL;
-my a-maths to FAIL;
-my combine science to JUST PASS;

--my d&t theory has already FLUNK..(hoping my folio would be able to pull the overall up)
--my chinese has already FLUNK...

EVERYTHING's failing...

maybe..it's just a hip-cup along the way..
MARK MY WORDS:: i'm not going to give up!!
NOTHING's stopping my A1!!
i'll get back soon & buck up!!

2008-05-02T08:39:00.000-07:00

Everything in me are REALLY REALLY going wild...

i've really got no idea what's happening to me these few days...
sudden blackout and nearly fainted which i don't know why..
getting mood-less for no good reasons...
sneezing like nobody's business...
tearing for no reason...

what's exactly happening to me??!!
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o2/o5/o8- today??
went to samuel's house to celebrate his?? his dad's birthday?? i've got no idea..cos' he told me they're celebrating his dad's..but they sang birthday song for him..yupps...i've got no idea...
hmm..before dining, my nose itch like nobody's business and my tears just rolled down??.. kind of scaring my own self...
after dining, went back into his room and talked damn lot..laughed damn lot too..darling and him went very high too..for dunno whatever reason..yupps..
just a summary here in my blog..
for full write up, may refer to cheryl's bloggy..
i'm getting mood-less and restless in some sense...

anyway,

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intro of songs::

Inconsolable by Backstreet Boys

lyrics:

I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor
I wanna let you walk away tonight without a word

I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling,
Oooh, if you were here right now,
I swear I'd tell you this

[Chorus:]
Baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keepin it inside, it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you, to you
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls, yeah
I can see the edge,
But I can't take the fall, no
I've memorized the number
So why can't I make the call
Maybe cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility

[Chorus]

No, no, no

I don't wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
That everything I hold in
Is everything I can't let go (oooh, can't let go)

Cause BABY...

[Chorus]

Don't you know it baby
I don't wanna waste another day
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Oooh, I'm inconsolable
Whoaa yeah
I'm inconsolable
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NEXT, i'm sinply in LOVE with this song on rei's bloggie..
Only Fooling myself by Kate Voegele

lyrics::
I stop to catch my breath - And I stop to catch your eye
No need to second-guess - That you’ve been on my mind
I dream days away, but that’s okay -
It’s like I want to hear a silent sound - And then hold it in my hand
But a rose won’t blossom from a ground - Of desert sand, but I like to pretend that

One day I’ll turn around - I’ll see your hand reach out
I’m only fooling myself, oh, - But maybe when you smile
It means you’d stay awhile - Just maybe you’d save me now

Well, now it’s etched in stone - That I can’t survive alone - You have the missing piece
That I need so desperately - Yes, I slip away to a day that’ll never come
It’s like a splash of water to my face - When I suddenly realize - That you could never find a place
For me in your eyes, and I don’t know why I keep thinking

One day I’ll turn around - I’ll see your hand reach out
I’m only fooling myself, oh, - But maybe when you smile
It means you’d stay awhile - Just maybe you’d save me now

It’s love in disguise - I’m lost in your eyes - I’m lost in your eyes

One day I’ll turn around - I’ll see your hand reach out
I’m only fooling myself, oh, - But maybe when you smile
It means you’d stay awhile - Just maybe you’d save me now - Save me now
Just maybe you’d save me now
[Only Fooling Myself Lyrics on
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lastly,
Nowhere To Go by Backstreet Boys

p/s: no lyrics..

2008-04-25T08:49:00.000-07:00

starting MYE in 2days time....

i'm seriously going crazy...
wanted to start revising for my mye long ago..but~~~ i was stucked at my folio...
"which is more important?? Mid-Year or 'O' levels??" ;
"gina, you're too slow..please speed up.."
the remarks i always get from mr chia..
it wasn't that i do not want to start..
if it's not that you've rejected my ideas one by one, i would have started it..
perhaps, it's all the lil excuses that i gave myself to stop myself from moving forward.
i wished i could have moved on..in whatever sorts of things..
but~~somehow, i can't..
something's pulling me back and i don't know what's that..
i'm not stepping any forward...
NEITHER AM I FALLING BACKWARDS!!

coach once told me;

when the going gets tough,

only the tough gets going.

i'm DEFINITELY gonna be the tough one!!

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introduction of song: Baby Girl by InnerVoices

i'm somehow addicted to this song...

lyrics:

There are times when i look in your eyes
i see the love that we shared
i see the joy inside
but i didn't see the feelings you hide
and now you're saying goodbye
because your love has died

And all i can think about is you
the way you say you love me too
and everytime i close my eyes i see your face
my love can never be erased
and you can never be replaced...baby

baby girl
why don't you come back to me
why don't you love me anymore
baby girl
you know i still care for you
you know i will love you forevermore...

There are times
when i kiss you goodnight
I feel the love that we shared
I feel the joy inside
but I didn't feel what you tried to hide
and now you're saying goodbye
because your feeling has died

And all i can think about is you
the way you say you love me too
and everytime i close my eyes i see your face
my love can never be erased
and you can never be replaced...baby

baby girl
why don't you come back to me
why don't you love me anymore
baby girl
you know i still care for you
you know i will love you forevermore...

And all i can think about is you
the way you say you love me too
and everytime i close my eyes i see your face
my love can never be erased
and you can never be replaced...baby
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P/s: i love you.

2008-04-11T08:29:00.000-07:00

i'm going brain dead!!

i've been suffering from serious headache for the past few days...
it's really killing my brain cells one by one..
it's terribly painfully.. i've got no idea what happen or what cause my headache.. but it just come 'LIKE THAT'..

basically, i went for night study for the past few days and only managed to do a few things each day.. cos' of my headache which eventually distracted me..

well today, i did something that really proves that i'm brain dead.....
i went meeting dor x2 after my d&t workshop..due to my laziness, i took bus302 to yew tee.
when i reach the platform of yew tee station, i saw a train in coming and i broad onto it without any consideration..
i'm supposed to take the train down to bukit gombak but i ended up going down kranji station...
i could actually took the wrong train!!

haas(: i was dumb enough to take the wrong side of the train when i've took it for like 17years already..Ooh my god!! :P
but fortunately, i wasn't late upon meeting dor x2 but we're eventually late for tuition:P
haas:P
tuition was fine today just that everyone turned out to be very hyper at the end:P
hahaha(: anyway, i did lots of stupid things over the week lars...:P i'm proud of it:P

We, seniors are going back for training tomorrow..cos' we asked to go back tomorrow!! not very sure what are the juniors & coach up to tomorrow:P kinda looking forward to tomorrow's training(:

introduction of songs!!!!
The Way by Clay Aiken

lyrics:

Theres something bout the way you look tonight,
Theres something bout the way that i can't take my eyes off you.
Theres something bout the way your lips invite,
maybe its the way that i get nervous when your around.
And I want you to be mine
and if u need a reason why,

[Chorus:]
Its in the way that you move me,
and the way that you tease me the way that I want you tonight,
its in the way that you hold me,
and the way that you know me,
when I can't find the right words to say,
u feel it in the way, you feel it in the way.

Theres something bout how you stay on my mind,
theres something bout the way that I whisper your name when I'm asleep
Oh no.
Maybe its the look you get in your eyes.
Oh baby its the way that makes me feel to see you smile.
And the reasons they may change but what i'm feeling stays the same.

[Chorus]

I can't put my fingers on just what it is that makes me love you, you baby.
So don't ask me to describe, I get all choked
up inside, just thinking bout the way.

[Chorus]

2008-04-06T08:24:00.000-07:00

orchestra practice's cancelled today!!

usually, i'm happy that practice's cancel but this time....i'm NOT!!
cos' i'm all prepared for the practice today & rejected all "datings". but it ended up cancelled due to most people's unable to make it today..and~~ practice's postpone to next week(:
another week with no sunday:P
kees(: no choice..concert's on coming..

yupps, since practice's cancelled today, i went to meet up with both my dearest to study after my lesson(: did a few questions of maths cos the time i reached there was already 4 :P
yupps(:
ooh ya, ard 7, a china man came sitting with me and cheryl!! he's studying ENGLISH!! the english that he's studying is far too CHIM!! it's really CHIM!! ask cheryl if you don't believe me:P
yupps, he told us alot of things also..like the education system in china, how an indian man pronounced "SWEEP" etc etc..
yuppps..(:

next!! introduction of songs AGAIN~~~~
One In A Million by Bosson

lyrics:

You're one in a million
Oh
Now
You're one in a million
Oh

Sometimes I can't hate you every day
Sometimes you can fall for everyone you see
Only one can really make me stay
A sign from the sky
Said to me

[Chorus]
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover all the stars above us
You're one in a million
You're once in a lifetime
You made me discover all the stars above us

I've been looking for that special one
And I've been searching for someone to give my love
And when I thought that all the hope was gone
You smile, there you were and I was gone

I always will remember how I felt that day
A feeling indescribable to me
Yeah
I always knew there was an answer for my prayer
And you, you're the one for me

[Chorus x 2]

I was cool and everything was possible
You tried to catch me but it wasn't possible
Nobody could hurt me it was my game
Until I met you baby and went insane
And when you didn't want me, I wanted you
Because the finer thing bout it was I like to go
I like it when its difficult I like it when it's hard
You know it's worth it if ya find your heart

[Chorus x 2]

You're one in a million
Oh
You're one in a million

Invisible by Clay Aiken

lyrics:

Whatcha’ doin’ tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Who's stealin' your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make you see that I'm alive

[Chorus]

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

Saw your face in the crowd
I call out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could read what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life

[Chorus]

If I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait..I already am)

I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I'm scream out
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...

[Repeat Chorus]

If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...
If I was invisible...

Wherever You Will Go by The Calling

lyrics:

So lately, been wondering,
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall
It would fall upon us all
and between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall
It would fall upon us all
Well then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go

2008-04-05T06:39:00.000-07:00

the world is REALLY REALLY very small!!!

I SAW YING CONG TODAY!!
i was really shocked upon seeing her. cos' she's real PRETTY!!! she's really really really PRETTY!! i've never seen her dressed so beautifully before. damn it.
she's really gorgeous lors!!
haas(: meet her at my bus-stop when i was about to go study..talked to her about lots of thing though it's only a short distance to the interchange. yupps, then we talked about SHARON!! it's been a long long time since i last saw sharon..ying cong say she's busy working nowadays.
hmms, how i wish we'll have a meet up some day..with the seniors...sobs..

yupps!!
introduction of songs again: How You Remind Me by Nickelback

lyrics:

Never made it as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing
Tired of living like a blind man
I'm sick of sight without a sense of feeling
And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am

It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
for handing you a heart worth breaking
and I've been wrong, i've been down,
been to the bottom of every bottle
these five words in my head
scream "are we having fun yet?"

yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no
yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no

it's not like you didn't know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do
And it must have been so bad
Cause living with me must have damn near killed you

And this is how, you remind me
Of what I really am
This is how, you remind me
Of what I really am

It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
for handing you a heart worth breaking
and I've been wrong, i've been down,
been to the bottom of every bottle
these five words in my head
scream "are we having fun yet?"

yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no
yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no
yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no
yeah, yeah, yeah, no, no

Never made it as a wise man
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealing
And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
Of what i really am
This is how you remind me
Of what i really am

It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
for handing you a heart worth breaking
and I've been wrong, i've been down,
been to the bottom of every bottle
these five words in my head
scream "are we having fun yet?"
yeah, yeah
are we having fun yet [3x]

next, When You Look Me In The Eyes by Jonas Brothers

lyrics:

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms
I know that it's forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

2008-04-04T07:54:00.000-07:00

i agree that the world is small!!

i coincidentally bump into MR SOH CHUN YANG at my bus-stop(as usual) when returning home from tuition. then, the 2 of us stood at the bus-stop & chat(as usual).
AND THEN, again, i(we, i mean..) coincidentally bump into MR BOO TAIYI.
so, he joined in our conversation( but ended is all theirs)..sobs..
hmm, ya. they were talking about how fun is it in NP..which is also my dream college..ya~~ so through this "conversation" i've learn more things in NP(: and i'm really gonna strive hard to get in there..
ooh ya!!! other than talking things in NP, i've know more things of CHUNYANG~~~:P
kee kee..yupps, really nice meeting up with old buddies. BUT!! they kept SHOOTING at me just now!! SO IRRITATING!! :P ARGGH!! i'm angry!! "NINANANINANINA" :P
hahahaha(:
OTHER THAN THAT, it's fun being with them(:

AND, SOH CHUN YANG!! you're SOOOOOO~~ BLOODY CUTE!! *(twist!!) :P

introduction of song:Do You Remember by Aaron Carter

lyrics:

Ohhhohhhh Yeah
Ooooh
Oohohh

Remember we'd be up all night
Talking 'til the morning light, yeah
Like the way it used to be
Those simple days
Just you and me, mmmm

I think baby I know
What's on your mind
Cuz you look like you've
Got something to say

I may not say those words anymore
But maybe it just ain't my way

You ask me do I love you but
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you

Remember we used to laugh and say
No one else could get in our way
And there were times
When you would cry
And came knocking
On my door
And I was there
To shelter your pain

I think baby you should
Get that off your mind
Make it seem like
A brighter day

I may not say those words anymore
But maybe I can make it my way

You ask me do I love you but
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you

The answer girl
Lies within your heart
Take a look inside

You ask me do I love you but
Do you remember
Why I walked on water for you
Do you remember
My first steps on the moon
Have you ever wondered why
I gave three wishes to you
You asked the question
But the answer lies
In you, in you
The answer lies in you

In you, in you
The answer lies in you

In you, in you
The answer lies in you

In you, in you
The answer lies in you, yeah

2008-03-28T21:21:00.000-07:00

everything came to an end YESTERDAY...

"I'm Gifted, So are you" workshop.
Adam Khoo workshop ends yesterday with tears flooding the school hall. *(thank god that our hall isn't flooded:P) jkjkjk..
hmms.
throught this workshop, i learn quite alot. eg. having self-esteem, speed reading, appreciating those around me, etc etc...
after this workshop, i've seen my goals and future more clearer. i know where i'm going in the next few years of my life and where i'm heading to for, for my ambition.
if anyone ask me what's my purpose in life, i'll say, "to make every minute counts".

i really learnt lots and lots of thing through this workshop though i missed much when i went for tourneys..
if anyone is to ask me what's good about Adam Khoo workshop, i'll say, EVERYTHING...

my 5years of Badminton journey in Kranji Sec.

tourney officially ends yesterday..with the last match against TKGS..
ytd during dinner time, kj asked me if we've won the match..and i say" nope. BUT WE'VE WON TEAM WORK and TEAM SPIRIT!! "
i'm proud of my team TODAY!! although i'm proud of them just on the last match of our tourney, but it isn't late. they'll alway be in my heart.
seriously it's tough biding goodbyes, but somehow it had to be done..
i've got to say goodbye to my 5years of badminton journey in KSS, and the juniors..i'm unable to fight with you guys as a team anymore & doing apart in the KRANJI BADMINTON TEAM anymore.
thoough i've said goodbyes, but i'll still come back somedays to see you guys IMPROVE!!
everyone of us would like to see everyone of you improve & standing up strong when we leave the school.
thanku for all the things you've done to keep my journey in the team interesting.
watching every single one of you progress bit by bit really made you girls seems to be my daughters. every steps you've took, every falls you had, touches me & hurts me lots.
please continue to move on stronger and forgetting all those mistakes & falls you exprience.

I LOVE YOU!! strawberry strawberry(:

2008-03-20T07:29:00.000-07:00

i've updated my blog!!

since people are complaining about me not updating my blog, hmm, i shall update it today(:
basically, i went rei's house for lunch today(: rei & cheng were the chiefs today & the lunch today was superbly delicious!!
REI & CHENG!! i, ang sor hong, LOVE the "CURRY RICE" you've cooked!! THANKU(:
haas(: the both of them do the cooking & i do the WASHING today!!
HAAS(: fortunately i did break any of rei's plates:P
being at REI'S house was fun!! watching free "GAYING" movies:P
haas:P i'm kidding:P anyway, just being with all the guys was simply nice(: no boundaries in between us(: cos' I, ANG SOR HONG, ADMIT I'M A TOMBOY:P kees kees:P
okay, for more info about today's activities at REI's house, please refer to either ZHUN's blog or REI's blog..OR, MAYBE DICKSON's blog(: *(this is what DICKSON teaches me:P)

introduction of new song(:

LYRICS: TRUELY MADLY DEEPLY by Savage Garden
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong I will be faithful
'cause I'm counting on
A new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning, yeah

Chorus:
I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me
And when the stars are shining
Brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish, send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the
Pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded by the
Comfort and protection of
The highest powerIn lonely hours
The tears devour you

Chorus:
I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me
Oh can’t ya see it baby
You don’t have to close your eyes
‘cause it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do

Chorus:
I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me
I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea, yeah
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

[Chorus Until Fade]
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next: Whenever You Need Someone by Natalie Grant

lyrics:
I know that life seems hard, cruel and unkind
A lonesome journey with questions in your mind
I’ll hold your weary hand as you walk down the road
Remember you’re never alone

Chorus
Whenever you need somebody
When ever you want someone
To reach out and touch you
With a love that is strong
Whenever you need somebody
Whenever you want a friend
To chase away the clouds and help the sun shine again
I will be that friend
If I could have one wish this I would pray
A heavenly miracle, your pain to drift away
So I’ll keep on prayin’ until that day comes
Remember that I’ll be the one
Whenever you need somebody
Whenever you want someone
To reach out and touch you
With a love that is strong
Whenever you need somebody
Whenever you want a friend
To chase away the clouds and help the sun shine again
I will be that friend
I’ll give you strength in times you’re feeling weak
I’ll give you hope and help you to believe
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LASTLY, song introduced by SHANE: Where Are You by Natalie feat. justin roman

LYRICS:
[Justin](I know you are out there baby...somewhere)
There is someone out there for me (I know there is somebody out there)
I know she is waiting so patiently (yeah) can you tell me her name? (Somebody tell me her name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane
How does she laugh?
How does she cry?
What's the color of her eyes?
Does she even realize I'm here?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?
dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)

[Natalie]
I'm staring out at the sky (I see you baby)
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams (right here) yea-yeah
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh? How does he cry? What's the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?
dadadadadada dadadada dadadadadada (where are you?)

[Justin]
There is someone out there for me (there is someone out there for me)
I know she is waiting so patiently (so patient)
Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane (that's right)

[Natalie]
How does he laugh? How does he cry? What is the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?

[Justin]
Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?

[Natalie]
Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?
[Together]
dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada (I know you out there)
dadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada

[Justin Talking]
Where are you?? I'm going to look all over the world baby
'Cuz I know you are out there
I know this might sound crazy, but I think I love you
dadadadadada (that's right) dadadada dadadadadadadadadadadada dadadada (yeah) dadadadadada
Where are you??
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P/S: this post is a "LIL" too long:P

2008-03-13T07:16:00.000-07:00

i'm doing what typical SINGAPOREANS do..

What Gina Ang Sor Hong Means

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

then i did this: "HOW FEMININE ARE YOU"

You Are a Tomboy

You're having too much fun to bother with nail polish and crazy diets.

Guys are instead impressed by how much you know and do!

How Feminine Are You?

next, i did this test which made me think it's true:P

You Are 20% Girly

Um... you're a guy, right? If not, you're the most boyish girl in the world.

And for you, that's probably the ultimate compliment.

How Girly Are You?

2008-03-12T09:26:00.000-07:00

a new change in my blogskin..

do comment on it. thanku.

2008-03-12T04:57:00.000-07:00

i'm going missing..

i'm utterly disappointed in myself right now.
things aren't going right.
what else can i do other that all the mistakes that i've done??!!
i'm pathetically feeling low right now.
so, i'm going missing for a day or two so as to chill down.
yupps, i'm seriously going to chill down. so, please don look for me if you guys want to see a crazy gina again on friday.
yupps, thanku.

hmms, below's another song that i've fallen in love with..

Mouth Shut by The Veronicas

lyrics:
I kept my mouth shut from the start
I guess I left you in the dark
You thought you knew me but you don't
You say you'll love me but you wont
When you find out who I am

I kept my mouth shut for too long
All this time you got me wrong
Now we're in this way too far
I'm about to break your heart
Tear everything we had apart

'Cause I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding on to you
I tried so hard
To be the one
I don't like who I've become

Won't keep my mouth shut anymore
I've had my share of closing doors
Now I know I'm not afraid
I know exactly what you'll say
But I'm sorry it's too late

'Cause I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding on to you
I tried so hard
To be the one
I don't like who I've become

Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
(I kept inside of me for all this time)
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
(Thought that I could make it work if I just tried)
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
(But I'm sorry to admit that I have lived a lie)

'Cause I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding on to you
I tried so hard
To be the one
I don't like who I've become

I kept my mouth shut for too long
Now I know that it was wrong

I wish I told you from the start
That this was never meant to last
We should've never gone this far

Won't keep my mouth shut anymore

2008-03-10T08:19:00.000-07:00

i'm so sorry that i've once again changed my blog song:P

The Birthday Song by Corrinne May

Don't worry about that extra line
That's creeping up upon your face
It's just a part of nature's way
To say you've grown a little more
Trees have rings and thicker branches
Kids shoes get a little tighter
Every year we're getting closer to who we're gonna be
It's time to celebrate the story of how you've come to be

Happy birthday my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
You're such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true

So light a candle on your cake
For every smile you've helped create
For every heart and every soul
You've known to grow a little more
A few more pounds, a little more grey
Don't count the years just count the way
It takes a little time to go from water into wine
Don't ever lose the wonder of the child within your eyes

Happy birthday my friend
Here's to all the years we've shared together
All the fun we've had
It's such a blessing
Such a joy in my life
May the good Lord bless you
And may all your dreams come true

2008-03-06T22:16:00.000-08:00

it's just a piece of paper!!

just because of a piece of paper and what i've told, i had to walk all the way back home.
stuipd.
i thought i wasn't suppose to go down regent today and so i didn't bring that piece of letter. who knows, i'm INFORMED that i've gotta go regent today..
i was wondering if i'm suppose to say that i dont like what mr foo did.
i don't know if i'm suppose to hate him.
why am i always the very last to know about things?! and yet they said i'm the oldest..
what's the problem in between?? i really don't mind going down alone..but just, why am i always the last to know??!!

2008-03-02T08:13:00.000-08:00

Something That I Already Know by Backstreet Boys

Here we are,
Seven days
And seven nights of empty tries
It's rituals, habitual
But it's never gonna work this time
We're to the point of no return
And along the way the only thing we've learned
Is how to hurt each other
I'm looking back and wondering why
It took so long to realize
That nothing's changed, it never will
All these years of standing still
And still we stay, in all this pain
And nothing's going to make it go away
Chrous
I don't want to wait another minute
Put me out of my misery
I can read your mind baby you're not in it
And we're not what we used to be
No you wouldn't have to lie to me
If you would only let me go
And I don't want to wait another minute to hear
Something that I already know
I know, I know, I know
Something that I already know
I know, I know, I know
So save your voice
Don’t waste your breath
Can’t you see we’re at the end?
This goodbye, it’s permanent
So wish me well And try to forget
All the fights
And all the ways
We almost made it
But we never did
And finally it’s come to this
Chrous
I don't want to wait another minute
Put me out of my misery
I can read your mind baby you're not in it
And we're not what we used to be
No you wouldn't have to lie to me
If you would only let me go
And I don't want to wait another minute to hear
Something that I already know

2008-02-27T06:41:00.000-08:00

bad habit of mine.

I’ve been so sarcastic these few days. I apologize of my misdoing for the past days or even, weeks.

i realized I’ve got the bad habit of being sarcastic today, and I asked people around me to help me kick away my bad habit and so, I went to joseph as he was just sitting beside me during MTL period this morning..
he said nothing else but just this,” shut up, and you’re right.”
Hmms, perhaps it sounds a lil evil. But he’s right, as long as I shut up my mouth; I won’t be saying things that are sarcastic. True enough, I shut my mouth, when I’m not needed to talk, from the period after MTL till the rest of the day and I’ve not say anything sarcastic. Perhaps, I still did. But I’m trying to reduce them down to ZERO now. So, sorry guys, please bear for a lil while.

And also, please help me in kicking off my stupid bad habit.
Thanku.

2008-02-22T09:23:00.000-08:00

i don't know how you guys came across my blog. and flooded my tagboard with unnecessary things. stop quarelling in my tagboard..it's useless la, it's just gonna flood my tagboard.
since i can't do anything about my tagboard, i shall then remove the posts updated previously.
i know it's gonna be a never ending war with you guys. so i shall be the one keeping mum and not give any comments at all for now.

2008-01-15T05:09:00.000-08:00

i don't need a position in the team!!

it has been a long time since i last update my blog..
life's getting meaningless to me was the reason i'm not updating. everything seems meaningless and days were just boring. am i the one who's changing?? or what's it that's happening around me??

tourney starts this coming thursday and i don't even know who's my partner!! how am i going to train like that..with this standard of mine and the lack of training with my partner, i don't think i'm gonna do well. i simply just feel ashamed about myself. i don't want to get into the court with thick skin and come out like a clown. i really don't mind that i'm not playing for the team. i don't make a difference in the team anyway. i know others play better than me and needs this place more than i do..
seriously, i'm not feeling proud of being in the b'team anymore. i'm like just a stupid outsider who went for training everytime. the way your looking at me really make me sick. i hate the way you looked at me. it seems like everyone's sympathising me thus giving me a chance to get into the team. please, i know where i stand.

stop throwing positions to me and expecting me to hold up the job. just because i'm the oldest in the team, and thus you're throwing this stupid position to me?!! isn't that stupid?! and, throughout all these years, i don't remember that we have a vice in the team, and now you're like expecting me to hold up that position?? it's somehow impossible to me.
did anynoe really notice my efforts being put in?? where's all the credits that i'm suppose to get??!!

i'm somehow feeling that i'm longer in the team. playing for the school or not, i'm totally not interested.
this year girls team was the most horrible team i've been into. doesn't have any hope and aims for the b'girls anymore.

things happening everyday's like killing me.
all those rumours & stuffs are really making me sick. stop it once and for all please..

2007-12-20T06:07:00.000-08:00

it's the best thing i've ever received this year!!

received 'N's results on wednesday.
it's the best results i've ever received throughout my entire life. never had my name seen on the projector screen nor heard from the teacher. it's really really bloody shocking upon hearing my name at that point of time.

'N's are the start of the important exams for us.
receiving 'N's results ISN'T the end. but it's the start of preparing for the other upcoming important exams.

thanks for all the compliments that you guys gave me. you guys did well too!! congrates to all of you!! let's continue to work hard in the days to come kks(: jiayou guys(:
you're great!!

and, yupps. was looking thruogh my e-mail just now and i saw this mail which talks about me?? can i say this?? haas.
i wasn't quite sure but it's kinda true.

cos it wrote:
February 15 - 21 ~ Skunk.

and the defination was:
If you are a Skunk : You are near to perfect and nice at heart. The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

it's some sort true(: i could say:P haas(:
okie. shall end this post here(:
take care, all(:
CHEERS!!

2007-12-15T05:38:00.000-08:00

bloody bloody bloody!!

'N's results officially release next tuesday(18dec) at 2pm sharp!!
it's making me bloody, freaking anxious and nervous!!
stupid. why am i so nervous.
bloody lors. shit sia.

really hope my results will be within my expectation...

2007-11-24T08:12:00.000-08:00

strength transmute into weakness

i went back training today!! it could be said is the happiest training that i've attended this year. senior boys came back, liting and min fang came back too!! the whole atmosphere in the hall totally changed. it had become much lively then before(with all the juniors).
i just love the atmosphere to be so crowded and lively. i find it very fun to be in(:
something really bad happened to me today...i've strained my leg AGAIN. it's very very painful. but not as painful as the time i've strained my calves during tourney early this year. no matter how pain i'm suffering physically, my heart still hurts the most.
anyway, after i've strained my leg today, i've finally realised mr wee really wants me to go back to play. not for the school, but for him. only today, i've then realised and feel the care and concern from him. i'm so touched. perhaps i'm easily touched by anything and everything.
mr wee, i'll definitely get myself back on feet and play for you.
i mean it.
i'll go along with the decision of matches you asked me to play.
i really mean it.

ya, so..my day today passed so fast today with smiles, laughters and boredom.before i could realised it's end of the day, it's already 1 in the midnight. how i wish time would have stop. for us to clear our doubts for anything and everything.

i've found out my own strength. but at the same time, i've figure out my own weakness.

spending much of the time i've been thinking:

无论是酸甜，苦或辣，总是把所有事都往自己的丹田里吞。
是祸，是福？那都是看个人的吧。
我真的思索了好一阵子。
不过，也在那当儿, 有一种落寞涌上心头。
一时之间根本适应不来。
总觉得我对我身边的每一个人都有一种亏欠感。
总是觉得自己欠了他们什么似的。
自己也不是很清楚。

nothing really matters to me right now.even if i've found my strength, it isn't a blessing to me either.

through this, i've realise that memories are not to be remembered in the mind.
but to be demolised from the mind and to be locked and kept in the heart.

labels: blessings to??

2007-11-18T06:36:00.000-08:00

lost in reality.

i don't need your sympathy.

wake up my dear self.
pending for impossible? it's impossible.

i'm really trying my best to stand back on my feet.
really trying hard.
things are disappearing one after another. i really don't wish to see that to happening.
it's really memories that are the most precious things ever.

why do people appreciate somethings but some don't??!!
the things that you wanted that someone to notice and appreciate, but they just won't.
to appreciate things is it really that difficult?

labels: looking forward?? pending...
it'll always be kept and locked in my heart.

2007-11-17T05:48:00.000-08:00

我今天好开心。。是真的。

i went back for training today(:

it's so vigorous.and i strained my muscles. it's all those old injuries. but, just that i've strained my knee-cap(my new injury).and it hurts alot alot.

but i think it's effective(: at least everyone gained and improved their stamina(:

seriously, i don't find anyone improving much.just that their strokes are there.hmm.suddenly felt that i didn't really missed alot of training sessions.

i played singles today!! i've managed to reached 15!! after 3plus months w/o training, i still managed to score 15!! i'm not expecting to win her.but just wanted to achieve my aim for that match(:

and, i did it!!(:

it's a good thing(:

haas(:

actually, i'm kind of emotional right now. haas. i left school at 6plus?? i've got no idea. but i ended up reaching home at 8 :P

i also dunno where did i go..hahaha..just went walking around alone..

hmms..
maybe it's true of what darling told me. i'm playing it cos' it's my interest. so, i'm definitely gonna do my best in everything i do and not have any regret.

i came joining this school 4years ago just for it and i'm definitely not gonna leave any empty promise which i made few years back.

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perhaps they are right,

even if you are not a counsellor, you can comfort oneself as if you are one. but once the same problem happens to you, you will DEFINITELY not able to coop with it the same way you asked them to. it's hard to do so.

all i'm gonna do is to act optimistic on the outside but definitely pessimistic on the inside.

i know what i'm suppose to do. just don't wish to see the ending. it's definitely not the ending i'm pending for. it's hard to make a decision.

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label: it's time for me to let it off??

2007-11-07T06:55:00.000-08:00

i'm so bored.

i'm feeling so bored..
something seems missing in my life..

hmph.
work for me is getting more and more slack as days passed. seriously i'm not very sure what am i doing everyday:P it's like i'm repeating things i did over and over again, everyday. kind of bored. but it's tiring. no idea why:P

today:
as per normal, i reached office 15mins before 9.. and what's different today when i first reach office is that a small lil cockroach is lying on my table(it's half dead i think). he's welcoming me??
hahaha..i also dunno..picked up his feelers and into the dustbin he go:P so sorry, lil kroach:P

and, during lunch time..
i had my lunch alone today:(
heehee..
actually, i got lost with my lunch cliques:P
hahaha.
i also dunno how i got lost..but i think i receive the wrong info:P
haha. thus, i ate my lunch alone.. i was like kept laughing at myself of getting lost with my lunch cliques:P
hahahah..
kind of funny..

tomorrow's public holiday.
and my mentor reminded me for 3times that tomorrow don't needa go work.haax.though i'm blur, but also don need remind so many times ma..so "gan gar". kees..
actually, i'm kind of love being in the department i'm attached to now..though it's full of stress there, but there's still laughters somehow:P
and, i'm praised by the officers:P
kees(:
it can be said that it's the first time i heard people praising me:P
hahaha..i'm kind of flying above the clouds:P
but i'll continue to be smarter(:

hmph.
though i love being there, but still, i miss the time with my mates even more..

hmmms,
open house this coming saturday..i doubt no one wants me to see me appearing there. hmms..
i was bloody afraid that no one's doing the booth. but luckily someone took the initiative to start the ball rolling..
hmph.. coach wanting me back the team?? i doubt so..
who cares..i don't care if i'm playing for school next year, i just wanna play for coach*(andy koh).
i really miss his training.. miss those bunny hops.. those laps and laps of shuttle runs.. the intensive training that he gave and of course, the saturday training!!! the only day that i'm able to train.
honestly, i don't feel like going back to the girls training.. i don't stand a position in anyone's eye.. whatever it is, shall play for i, me and myself.

labels: i miss you.

2007-11-02T23:27:00.000-07:00

Everyone's feeling so down nowadays...

what's happening to everyone??
went viewing people's blogg and realised that everyone's feeling so low..
is this the "getting low" in trand now??
kind of geting my spirit down too..
hmms..
perhaps the year's getting to an end and everyone's rushing after some stuffs ba..
making people so tensed up and emo..

anyway, the draw for CHEERS tourney is out!!! please check the draw(:
hmm..
why aren't the juniors joining??
it's a kind of good experience..you, juniors should go out there to gain more experience.
hmms, i'm NOT in the position to say about anything now..not having a single rights now to decide anything..
anyway,
i've check my draw..liting and i will be playing against Pei Ting and Michelle from Temasek JC!!
ahh!! jiayou!!
we wanna win!! jiayou jaiyou!!
:P

hmms,
after working for consecutively for 3days. it's terribily tired!! terrible!!
did OT for everyday..but it's fun(:
and, today's saturday!! rest time for me!! but there's only 2 days!! can there be another day?? i'm so tired..need some time for me to replenish my energy lost:P
kees..
hmmss..
anyway, i missed the time spent with my mates!! i want gathering!! please ask me out*
on weekends please:P
or maybe dine out for dinner on weekdays?!!
please..someone ask me out??!!
:P
hmms..till here ba*
shall update next time(:
take care all(:

2007-10-30T23:10:00.000-07:00

'O's over for me!!!
but it's isn't a happy ending..didn't manage to finished the paper..left a few parts of the last question that i attempted, emptied..
it's supposed to be happy that the paper's over..but..it's not for me..
hmms..never mind, IT'S ALL OVER!!!

hmms,
tomorrow i'm suppose to have a date with my mates..but the agent called me just now and ask if i could start tomorrow. will i reject the chance of earning money earlier??!!
So, i've agreed..
hmm, so, i'm starting work tomorrow..
sorry guys, can't join your for sentosa trip..next time yea??!! during weekends huh..or maybe dine outside for dinner next time??!! sorry..
anyway, have fun(:

2007-10-25T03:31:00.000-07:00

3 more days to 'O'..

2007-10-23T05:44:00.000-07:00

5 more days to 'O's..

2007-10-22T01:03:00.000-07:00

went vivo with 3 of my mates yesterday(:
hahahaha(: it's fun!! took bloody lots of photos too=P

as for today,...
just that i've got to send photos to both of my swettiess, i came blogging:P
kees..
hmms..did paper2 today, lunched at KFC..keex..kinda heaty for me these few days. cos' i've been eating heaty stuffs all these while:P

hmms..
i've recieved phone calls all day..
but it's all good news!!
i'm kind of carryiny the good luck with me all day(:
the first phone call is about my ordering of guzheng..it's confirm!! it'll be delivered to my house this sunday!! it's going to be another 'BAOBEI' of mine(:
kees..

second phone call is a call to ask me down for an interview. WHEEEE!!! after so many resume that i've sent, finally there's someone replied me!! so touched~~LOL..
haaaaa..
kind of excited but nervous for me right now..

hmms..

basically, 'O's starts today..with the 'A' maths as the first paper..
passing by them made me feel so stress and nervous..just don't know what's the reason that made me feel that way. hmm, is it that i'm gonna be in the same situation as them next monday??
hmms,, i've got no idea..
anyway., i wish all those taking 'O's paper this year, all the very best(:
jia you, jia you(:

2007-10-20T23:59:00.000-07:00

CCA's resuming next week??!!

2007-10-13T09:05:00.000-07:00

Haw Par Villa.
yeah(:

backto post(: hmms, basically, i become historian today!! because, i went Haw Par Villa today with my baobei && sweet heart <33

haas(: Haw Par Villa is where i wanted to go before 'N's..haas(: i finally visited that place!!..for i think, this is the first time i've visit Haw Par Villa..hmm, maybe i've been there before, but think it just doesn't leave me any impression of that place..hmm..anyway, the place is full of historial things..i kinda like going there..because there're history of people that could be remembered(:

what i've learnt::

Brothers, Aw Boon Haw and Aw Boon Par are the owner of the villa the mansion was built in 1937 by Mr. Aw Boon Haw for his younger brother Boon Par, for helping him to market his medicated ointment Tiger Balm...**(their brotherhood really touched me)

the real mansion(which is formally known as Tiger Balm Garden) was then destroyed in the war from 1942-1945. then, people built Haw Par Villa..which is where we visit today..

and, i've realised that i've become more and more superstitious..after visiting the "10 courts of hell", i've learnt about the life after death in the display of ancient mythology..and i believe there's reincarnation and retribution..

cos' people say:

haax(:

anyway, i love the outing today(: thanks dearly(:

2007-10-11T23:44:00.000-07:00

i've failed. or should i say. i've never been successful before??!!

why aren't thing going smoothly for me??
must there always hip-cups along the way??
why must there be so many ????s and WHYs in my dictionary??
shall i just raise a white flag && simply surrender??

to who??
what for??

why are questions always easy to ask, and answers are alway difficult to search for??

labels: questions??

2007-10-09T09:56:00.000-07:00

YEAH!!

i've found this blogskin(:
i think i'm gonna LOVE this skin cos' of the picture(:
GREAT THANKS to the designer of the picture(:

THANKU(:
*words to the designer of the picture:: sorry if i didn't inform you that i used the picture..cos' i can't leave a message for you..

2007-10-09T02:45:00.000-07:00

WHEEEEE..YIPPY YIPPY YIPPY!!

'N's are OFFICIALLY over for me!!! wheeee..FINALLY!!
but..the worst are yet to come=P
INTENSIVE maths lessons starts on THURSDAY!! means that, i've only tomorrow to have fun..UHH..just 1day..keex(:
it's okie(: because, i'm gonna have fun to the fullest when the 'O's maths paper's done!! muahahaha:D
jia you(:

ooh yea..
today's d&t paper..
hahaha..wasn't within my expectation..hahaha..
i don't give a damn anyway=P
hahaha.. :P

and,
after my paper,
i've got surprises!! my baobei && sweetheart were at the gate waiting for me!!!
AHHHH!!! so surprised!!! i didn't expect them to be there(:
love(:
hahaha(: then we went breakfast?? lunch?? hahaha..actually, i'm not very sure what are we taking..hahaha(:
then, we went walking round && round..then deciding of where to go tomorrow and on saturday(:
hahaha(:
shall end here..update next time(:

2007-09-26T07:09:00.000-07:00

我真的变了..

2007-09-16T02:07:00.000-07:00

i think i shall remain in my isolated island..

there, used to be a place full of laughters && memories, a place i would always looking forward to go to..but this haven't be happening since the day you're gone..
memories were gone.laughters too.
will there ever be a chance for me to gain everything back at once??

it's all in the past..
it is a place i'd rather be in.but it's impossible for me to remain in the past..&& i know that it's a MUST for me to carrying on with my life.

label: no regrets.

2007-09-12T06:41:00.000-07:00

i've been browsing through my friendster account..linking here && there..leaving comments for whoever i've viewed..
why??
i'm bored..&& i'm always bored..

hmms..
TODAY??
spent the first 2hours 30minutes doing the paper..i then realised that the duration of the e-maths paper2 is equivalent to the duration of my d&t paper..
hmms..about the paper...hahahah..shall not talk about it anymore..
but paper 1&2 sux like hell..

hmms..
right now, at this moment, i'm kinda emotional now..
i've got no idea why..
all i'm thinking is the past..
what really happened in the past really really matters alot to me..
the days we spent going crazy everytime we met..
there's no barrier in between what ever we talk..we shared every single thing..everything's common in us..
doing the same thing && thinking about the same thing, at the same time..
now??
i've no idea..
lack of communication??
or have i just being forgotten??
the answer lies between you..
i still miss the time we've spent munching on stuffss&& being retards...

2007-09-08T09:06:00.000-07:00

i'm back AGAIN..with a long post=P
hmms..

basically,i went down to my ah ma house in the evening..
but before that, i went to the GYM in the morning!!
it's the GYM!! it has really been a long time since the last time i've exercised..
hmms..went to the gym at my mi-tang's condo along with my darling, laogong && laopo(:
haha..
you must be reading till blur=P
**please get this CLEAR!!::(mi-tang aka honey= dickson, darling aka bah bah=nathan, laogong aka maomao=samuel && last but not least..my LAOPO aka sweet heart=cheryl) haha..there's once that i'm bored && i gave them names=P..

when we were exercising, i once again injured my old injury..nobody knows, cos i didn't tell anyone..doesn't want anyone to worry..anw, it's not that serious now..so, don't worry yea(:

after we went to the gym, we went washing up then headed to LOT1 for lunch..we really had a hard time deciding where to go for lunch..haha
spining && spinning, going round && round && up && down the escalator..hahah(:
we then ended up in food junction..

after our lunch, we went to take NEOs!!! we 4 went to take NEOs!! ahh!! can anyone believe it?? hahaha..i'm kinda evil=P
haha..after taking, me && cheryl spent lots of time decorating it..&& i mean really lots of time..

haax..after tat darling went home, laogong went town && laopo went clementi..
&& me??
i went home..slept for an hour && then shower && went down to ah ma house..
know what??
i met my 'DEER DEER' at cck station..
who's DEER DEER??
haha..he's joseph..that time i was giving everyone names && he happen to get into the conversation den i wanted to call him 'DEAR DEAR' but he pronounced it as 'DEER DEER' ..den so be it..i'll call him 'DEER DEER'..haha..
DEER DEER pushed me into the train from by back && i was wondering who's that stupid idoit who pushed me so hard..haha..i didn't know it was him=P
haha..den i "accompanied" him till jurong east..haha,it's suppose to be him that accompanied me..haha..don care=P
haaz..den we parted at jurong east && i continued my way down to clementi..

at clementi, when i was about to cross the road, i nearly got bang down by one reckless taxi driver..the taxi was like bloody fast && did'nt even want to stop for me && i've to make the way..
HEY please..it's a ZEBRA crossing!! pedestrians first!!
&& the most important thing is that i DID looked out for cars!! stupid idiot!!

monday's 'O's prelims for maths paper1..hmms..aren't me supposed to mug for it now??
i've no idea..

Labels: things aren't going smoothly for me now a days..

2007-09-07T11:28:00.000-07:00

hmms..i think i've got addicted to the song-Upside Down..
i've got no idea who's the artist..but just happen to hear it..&&..i've changed my blog song(:
maybe you just don't understand how i feel..&& i hope you'll never be able to understand..it's not just simpily what you think.i'm not as simple-minded as you think..nobody could even understand me that little i want anyone to..

Labels:emo-ing.

2007-09-05T09:05:00.000-07:00

hais..
it's going 1AM now && i'm bloody tired now, head's aching like hell..but just doesn't wanna get to bed..

my visions are getting even blur these few days..am i going blind??
i hope i am..doesn't wanna see things that i'm not interested to see..

what's the problem with me nowadays??!!
i just can't express the thing i that want to.sometimes i don't mean the what i've said..but i just can't stop the things coming out from my mouth..
apologising now is like total useless..i'm just forever the bad guy in your eyes??
where are all the trust i earned from your for the past few years??
it's all gone..

2007-09-05T07:50:00.000-07:00

updated my blog(:
how's the new skin?? please gib comments..
kinda like this new skin,but it's kinda plain..hmmss..
will change back the previous skin soon,i think..
please give some comments on my new skin(:

2007-09-04T02:23:00.000-07:00

PLEASE!!! my nose is highly sensative to unpleasent smell!!! so, please stop irritating my nose!!!
hmms..
i'm starting to have the national exams kind of atmosphere in me...i't horrible..
anw,
yesterday's chinese paper was quite an easy one..BUT!! once the paper gets easy,it means that getting an A1 is much much difficult..my A1 is gone..hmms...&& today's SS paper was a killing one.it's killing me!!! ahhhh!!! sickening..&& tomorrow's is another F9 paper for me..hais..this 'N's are not going smoothlyfor me..i think..
haiz..y is
my entries so emo, so nasty??!!
hais..den, i shall talk about something that brightens up week..
the TEACHERS' DAY!!
hmms..did quite alot of stupid thing..

teachers' day eventually becomes seniors' day for me..took lots of photos with my seniors instead of my teachers..

hmm..when did i start to act cute?? i ask myself this question..

2007-08-27T00:59:00.000-07:00

**i suggest you to not read this post as it is offensive to some**
but it's still a choice of yours to read or not..&& this post shall remain here FOREVER!!
adding on to yesterday's entry..
the post is ONLY written to people with strong inference skills and those we have been reading my entries frequently/those who know how's my posting style is..
other than those,PLEASE DO NOT mess up what i'm trying to say a create a total chaos out there..&& PLEASE DON'T infer it in any way you guy want.cos' it's TOTALLY not what i'm refering to. you guys just don't understand me && you're trying to read my mind..what the..FUCK.i haven't scold this for like dunno how many bloody years already && what you guys did just made me say those bloody freaking stupid words out.
&&&
to those with poor answering skill people,if you all just simply want me to be STRAIGHT to you guys,well,just GET OUT of my blog && you're not welcome!!! STOP pretending that you, yourself knows alot about me && my post..

2007-08-26T23:22:00.000-07:00

what kind of mood am i in now??!! no special reason that causes me to be in such a mood..it's unexplainable..forget about it then..
hmms..i shall remain in the past..especially, the bbq yesterday..
i shall continue to drink as much as possible..i rather get drunk..
shall forget everything..
hmmmm..
anyway..thanks everyone who turned up for the bbq yesterday..sorry if you were not well-entertained..it won't be a successful one w/o your presence..thanks alot!!
well, shall end here..&& i shall continue to be in my lala land..
~getting drunk shall be the only solution now~

2007-08-16T06:41:00.000-07:00

haas..i'm back again!!!
hmms..prelims are officially over..
ehh..just now after a.maths paper went lot1 to walk & walk & walk..
haha..we took neos, then helped yanzhi buy birthday presents for angeline..den it's like 1.3opm le..i'm like late for friendly && yanzhi's late for history IP coaching..den we ran to school..it's bloody tiring..carrying the heavy bag && ran..it's tiring..
finally reached the school den they are already on bus le..lucky i did not miss the bus..haha..but ah mao did..i called him && he's still at K-POOL!! haha..he did'nt realise that it's already 1.3opm ler..haha..den we left w/o him..but he still came, with coach..
then...
during the friendly,..no..before the game..we went to stroke..i can't get my feel..no strokes..nothing..only got my service && judgement..hahaha..
with no strokes, no feel, i went to play doubles!!
i admit i din't play will but i did drive cross-court!! you said me && ah wen didn't!! i didn't get my strokes so i didn't dare to attack much, but i asked ah wen to attack && end the rally as i set up for her..but ended up getting scoldings..i did lack trainings..but i din't purposely don't want to come..hello, i having my prelims lor..i want to go training too..but studies comes first..
i can't do much either..but you must be glad that i still got my strokes back fast kks..
dumb dumb..
&& i'm going back for training on saturday!!! there's sure alot of things to say that day..
but this friendly, i saw someone..'lil DEXTER'..a 10years old(i think) china boy..super cute..much much cuter dexter tan..hahaha..that boy boy really looks like him lor..the way that boy boy serve also exactly like him..hahaha..mr.ong && mr.kong also say that..hahaha..so i'm not the only one..there's reliable evidence..haha..
seriously, that boy is really really cute..hahaha..cute lil boy..
anyway,
why are there so many people having their birthday in august?!! i'm broke, alright..haiz..but still, i wish all the august babies a HAPPY BIRTHDAY..

2007-08-15T17:08:00.000-07:00

HELLO!!! I'M BACK!!! but just for today..hahaha..
suddenly feel like blogging..cos', i've finished my d&t folio!!! WOOOOHOOOO!!! it's FINALLY COMPLETED!! hahaha!! i've been staying up till very very late everyday to do my folio. && now i've fallen sick..no voice now..haiz..it's hard to not talk for a minute for me already, && now, i've can't talk for like a day or so..ooh gosh..hope my voice will be back once again.all thanks to d&t that made me ended up like that!! hahaha..not really lars..if i've done it earlier, i wont be rushing like mad ler..hmms, started to regret..haiz..no point..haha..BUT!!! those dayswe rushed our artifact were real fun!! i don't know why, but just...FUN!! haha..hanging out with the guys really made me think that i'm one..haha..but I'M DEFINATELY NOT!! hahahahaha..just crapping around..cos' can't talk so type all out..hahaha..
anw, i'm left with only a.maths paper2 for prelims!! yea!!! BUT..there's still 'O's prelims for e.maths && the actual 'N' level which is like less than 20days!!! ooh gosh!! haiz..i really gotta mug harder for 'N's cos' i didn't touch my textbook & stuffs since the start..cos' i've been rushing my folio..so, the actual 'N's i shall mug double hard!! hahaha..by saying is so blooody easy..but will i really mug that hard?? i've got no idea..just gotta wait && see..hahaha..
ooh ya..today's my brother-NATHAN CHAN RONGDE's 16th birthday!! Happy Birthday, bro!!(:
hmms..i don't know when will be the next time i'm gonna update..but..i'll definately update but just doesn't know when..hahaha(:
thanks everybody for thier care && concern when i broke down..thanku, guys!!(:
okays, shall end here..i shall mug for my a.maths paper tomorrow..(: take care, all(:

2007-07-28T10:09:00.000-07:00

i'm back posting again(: cos' i've changed my blog song..-Big Girl Don't Cry-..i'm a big girl now..not gonna cry(:
then, also come post lors(: haha(:
hmm, just to update on wad i've done these few weeks..staying back for d&t till 9pm is like my weekly routine..hmms..mugging like siao last few weeks..cos' prelims is like 5more days away!!! ahh!! i'm kinda scared!! ahhh!!!! hmm..just gotta mug, mug, mug & mug..
jiayou to all(:

2007-06-30T01:02:00.000-07:00

I'm back!! (FINALLY=P) think everyone miss me yea?? =X hahaha..
sorry that i didn't update this few days..cos busy with work..i'm so sorry..
hmms..anyway, just wanna update photos that i took during the CF today..
CF'o7
yea!!..today we're having CF(cultural fiesta) IN THE MORNING!!! sick sia..so early in the morning..we had this programme at night during the past few years && now they have suddenly changed it to the morning!! dumb dumb..it's a saturday && they are forcing us to wake up that bloody early in the morning!! && can't wear costumes cos it's too hot for me && it's like so bloody humid in the morning..i wore tee-shirt && just a shorts && i can't stand the heat already!! imagine those who wore LONG SLEEVES costumes..OMG..haiz..
these are the programmes we had in the parade square :
#o1. arrival of G.O.H
#o2. principal's talk
#o3. sec1s folkdance competition
#o4. sec2s street dance competition
#o5. flag twirling performance
#o6. MASS DANCE
#o7. break....
THEN, we went up to hall at 9.3oam..
#o8. arrival of G.O.H @ school hall
#o9. kranji idol showdown
#1o. sec2s guitar competition
#11. dance open category competition
#12. costume parade
#13. guest performance
#14. prize presentation
#15. kidol votes @ foyer
---END---
the whole thing was like so diaoz..nothing interest me other than the MASS DANCE, flag twirling, the dance open category competition && the dance that the ex-kranjians danced..
hais..then after the CF thingy, went jurong east library with ah lor cos she wanna borrow books for her f&n..we had our delicious lunch there too(: err..then after she found 2books, we went to jurong entertainment centre..the ARCADE!! we wanna shoot zombies..but when we reach, the machine's gone!! no more zombies for us to shoot le..then we ended up playing some other games that we've never tried before..haha(: it's a fun day out JUST with my baobei(: haha(:
den we parted at jurong east station cos' i'm going down to my ah ma house &amp;amp;& she's going back home..after we part, i saw NATHAN!! he's alone..so surprise..asked him where he's going then he said he's going national stadium..haha(: he asked me to accompany him all the way down to LAVENDER when i'm just going to alight at clementi..he's just kinda mad..haha=X
hmms..talk lots of crap on the train..haha..then i've reach my ah ma house(:
spent the whole evening there rotting..soon decomposing..haha..tat's the end of today..

ooh ya..hmms..i wont be updating my blogg this few months..cos my lessons ends at 6pm EVERYDAY!!! i'm gonna be a 24hours MUGGER!! a serious MUGGER!! think i'm gonna die of stress before my main exams reaches..hahaha..hmm, ya. so i won't have anytime for blogging this few months till after my exams..i think..
SOOO, unknown, don't be disappointed if euu did'nt get to view any new post..haha(:

2007-06-22T21:26:00.000-07:00

pple say. you dream b'cos you think of it too badly that's why you will dream..
is it really the truth?? i doesn't wan that dream to happen in real life..

2007-06-21T22:48:00.000-07:00

it's my lil daughter's birthday today!!!!

Happy Sweet 16, girl(:

hey(: went to ecp to celebrate her birthday(: haha(: had kinda lots of fun there..pushing the birthday girl down water &&, cheryl down the water too(: haha..ooh ya..xiangwei planned today's programme herself && even prepared lunch for us(: so sweet!! den we went wash up && packed everything then left to the dunno where play pool..hahaha(: first time officially play pool=P
haha(: cheryl && me won ah zhun && mao mao the first few games but to the end was like.......shit.....i played like shit lors=X
haha..after playing we left at 7pm..

train-ed back home with...ah lor, cheryl, ah zhun, ah cheng, mao mao, zhan hui&& irvin..
&&
hahaha..let me introduce my new friend: Ng HongLin (xiang wei's cousin)
haha..ooh ya..&& my son-in-law, Desmond(: haha(: first time meeting them..but we really mixed well man..maybe we're just too crazy=X
hmms..
let me just continue what happened on the train..
cheryl was bloody high in the train just now lors.. (i'm involved too, actually=P)
let me tell you what happen..she went to pluck mao mao's leg hair && said:
Cheryl: sorry arhs..testing only..
me: you pluck his leg hair then say testing..
me: i box your eyes, test your eyes will blue-black anot..
me: den i use the knife to stab you, test you will die anot lars..
**（我拿刀 tooo 你，test 你会死吗啦。)**
then we(actually i'm the one) went laughing non-stop..hahaha(: i got no idea y we're just so high just now..the train were just filled with our voice=X i'm so sorry..i just can't help it=X
haha..den alight the train with HongLin..&& i continued the testing thingy with him..
me: ehh..i go slap the police, test will kanna send to jail for holiday anot..
HongLin: no lars..you go slap the police test what's their reaction..
me: hahahahahahahahahahaha..good idea..you go try..
HongLin: -_-"' (speechless, maybe i'm just too lame)
hahaha(:
den we part at the exit..hahaha..i somehow laughed at those sentences i said on the trained when i was alone on my way back home..haha(: kinda toot..but nvm(:

hmms.

shall i just take a break today?? not touching my holiday assignments??
ooh ya!! talking about holiday assignments..my chimese assignment..i went to finish the paper2 cos i does'nt have any squared paper to do my paper1..
just now i was so damn happy that i finish my chinese paper2 && then ah lor told me..don't neeeda do paper2..only needa do paper1...
-_-"' .........sob sob..waste my effort rushing it..
hmms, now i left with my S.S && A-maths + afew E-maths questions..
jiayou jiayou..half way through lers!!
it's kinda long post today..so please don say i never update!! **(esp cheryl)**